Been a while...Hasn't it?
Wow time seems to go by so fast...seems like only yesterday that I moved back to the Island and in truth it is comming up to 2 years on July 10th...
So here I am sitting here thinking about the last 2 years, and it brings both smiles and tears to my face for in truth some of the best things have happened to me over the last 2 years and yet also the worst thing.
I have found out who my true friends are and who were not, I have gained some new ones and lost some old ones.
I realy miss my best bud Sean ( Yori ) he is still living in Alberta and does not plan on moving home for at least 8 more years! I love him like my brother, we have shared many a good time and bad. Seen the best of one another and the worst, and through it all we have accepted who each other is as a person and become like brothers through it. You know you are close to someone when you do not talk to each other for weeks to a month at a time and when you finally get the chance to talk it is like you just saw him yesterday, that is how it is with Sean and I and in truth that makes me miss him all the more. only 7 years 6 months 5 days, 2 hours and 30 seconds...not that I am counting or anything...LOL LOL LOL!!!
So where was I...oh yes the last 2 years....I left one job to get a better one.
I have been pushed to my mental limits some nights trying to keep it all together, and some days I feal ok and feal like I will be able to control my emotions better.
It is realy hard some days to feal like I am a good person, to think of myself as a good man. But I know that I am, I have a big heart, I always try to do " The right thing " and I am honnest ( even to the point that it gets me into troubble! ). I look at my life as a whole and like anyone think " what if I did it this way? " or " what would of happened if I only did this? " but then I remember that you can not change the past nor what happened in it, all one can do is live in the present and plan for ones future, even if ones life is up and down like mine is...BAH...I have been through hell ( no not Kaslo but close...LOL LOL ) I have gotten my share of scars and come out swinging, I have never given up not once. I will take whatever life throws at me and bear it, I may stumble, I may make mistakes, but I will never ever give up.
I grew a backbone and it has caused me some pain in my life ( like losing some friends because I stick up for myself now ) but not once have I ever regreted finally growing one. I take every day one step at a time I am thankfull that I have someone who loves me for who I am and not for what they can make me into, I have friends who accept me as I am knowing full well that I might...aww hell who am I kidding...WILL fuck up sometimes...LOL LOL LOL...and still be my friends. They will help pick me up, dust me off, give me a good kick in the ass, and say " hey...you fucked up, now lets move past it and keep going! " and for that I thank all of you that I consider my friends, I may not show as to now much my friends realy mean to me ( there are some of those scars I am talking about..hee hee ) but know that I realy do care and never will I abandon a friend who is true to me...again I thank you all.
The S.C.A., wow where to begin...how to begin realy. Since moving home I have taken a more active roll in the SCA, I have traveled off the island more ( which isn't hard when I never did before..hee hee ) I have started to help others more at events and loving every second of it. I have even taken up an office as M.O.S. of Seagirt, something I said I would never do.
True it is not the hardest job on council but there is still responsibilities with it and I am doing the best I can. I have stoped thinking of what I can get out of the SCA for myself and started thinking what I can do for the others in it. Where once I would not go out of my way for a stranger I now do, I look forward to events where I can lend a hand weither it be helping people set up / take down tents, doing dishes, or simply escorting someone to their destonation. I just have to admit that I enjoy the SCA more now.
Hmm...well thats about it for now. Who knows when I will post again...hee hee hee.
Till then, lets hope life stays good for us all!
So here I am sitting here thinking about the last 2 years, and it brings both smiles and tears to my face for in truth some of the best things have happened to me over the last 2 years and yet also the worst thing.
I have found out who my true friends are and who were not, I have gained some new ones and lost some old ones.
I realy miss my best bud Sean ( Yori ) he is still living in Alberta and does not plan on moving home for at least 8 more years! I love him like my brother, we have shared many a good time and bad. Seen the best of one another and the worst, and through it all we have accepted who each other is as a person and become like brothers through it. You know you are close to someone when you do not talk to each other for weeks to a month at a time and when you finally get the chance to talk it is like you just saw him yesterday, that is how it is with Sean and I and in truth that makes me miss him all the more. only 7 years 6 months 5 days, 2 hours and 30 seconds...not that I am counting or anything...LOL LOL LOL!!!
So where was I...oh yes the last 2 years....I left one job to get a better one.
I have been pushed to my mental limits some nights trying to keep it all together, and some days I feal ok and feal like I will be able to control my emotions better.
It is realy hard some days to feal like I am a good person, to think of myself as a good man. But I know that I am, I have a big heart, I always try to do " The right thing " and I am honnest ( even to the point that it gets me into troubble! ). I look at my life as a whole and like anyone think " what if I did it this way? " or " what would of happened if I only did this? " but then I remember that you can not change the past nor what happened in it, all one can do is live in the present and plan for ones future, even if ones life is up and down like mine is...BAH...I have been through hell ( no not Kaslo but close...LOL LOL ) I have gotten my share of scars and come out swinging, I have never given up not once. I will take whatever life throws at me and bear it, I may stumble, I may make mistakes, but I will never ever give up.
I grew a backbone and it has caused me some pain in my life ( like losing some friends because I stick up for myself now ) but not once have I ever regreted finally growing one. I take every day one step at a time I am thankfull that I have someone who loves me for who I am and not for what they can make me into, I have friends who accept me as I am knowing full well that I might...aww hell who am I kidding...WILL fuck up sometimes...LOL LOL LOL...and still be my friends. They will help pick me up, dust me off, give me a good kick in the ass, and say " hey...you fucked up, now lets move past it and keep going! " and for that I thank all of you that I consider my friends, I may not show as to now much my friends realy mean to me ( there are some of those scars I am talking about..hee hee ) but know that I realy do care and never will I abandon a friend who is true to me...again I thank you all.
The S.C.A., wow where to begin...how to begin realy. Since moving home I have taken a more active roll in the SCA, I have traveled off the island more ( which isn't hard when I never did before..hee hee ) I have started to help others more at events and loving every second of it. I have even taken up an office as M.O.S. of Seagirt, something I said I would never do.
True it is not the hardest job on council but there is still responsibilities with it and I am doing the best I can. I have stoped thinking of what I can get out of the SCA for myself and started thinking what I can do for the others in it. Where once I would not go out of my way for a stranger I now do, I look forward to events where I can lend a hand weither it be helping people set up / take down tents, doing dishes, or simply escorting someone to their destonation. I just have to admit that I enjoy the SCA more now.
Hmm...well thats about it for now. Who knows when I will post again...hee hee hee.
Till then, lets hope life stays good for us all!