still kickin
so tell me. when is enough enough? when do you say I just can't do it anymore. I know she loves me, but she needs help. I can't make this work on my own anymore. She said she would get help if I would go with her, I said fine. Trust me, it's not like it would hurt any. But, how the fuck am I supposed to deal with the woman I love one night, then the next day, the bitch she's become? I've been doing it to long and it's killing me. I believe you can love someone to much, now, I really do. I realize that my love for her is killing me slowly but surely. I can see that love is blind, even if you don't want it to be, and you can't control that at all. All you can really do is deal with it, fight for what you believe in, or move on. I've fought a very long very hard battle, but I have not yet finished my war, it's close, but not there yet. How much longer can I go on before I fall on the field of battle and can no longer go on? How much more before I say, fuck it, go alone, I'm done? I don't know, never gotten to that point before, but it's gotta be close. Everytime a problem, she runs, hangs up, or logs out. She's to afraid to take reality head on and deal with it, but that times coming to an end, and she's going to find, it's now or never, she can fight or run, and if she runs it will be for the last time