I give up
Who likes to start a day getting woken up and bitched at, then continually through out the day, oh wait, and into the night. Yanno, I've made mistakes in my life, trust me this is far from where I want to be right now. I can take a lot but goddamn right now it feels like it's me vs. the world, and there is just no fucking way I can win that. So today, I've been called rude(ok yeah that's true), spiteful(yeah that too), and asshole(well no shit), and that I accept, cause I am. But to have the people who are supposed to be there for you helping you in time of need, to tell you what a bad person you are, that you are a bad father and don't deserve your own child, that's about all I can fucking take. I need someone I can talk to, and you know what, I'm just don't have that anymore. I know all my friends say I can talk to them, and that's fine, but that's just not me, I can't open up and let my feelings out to friends, well to very few people can I in fact. I want to break down and cry, and can't, I want to lie down and die, and wish I could. I just can't take anymore. I need a goddamn break