Entry II
As odd as the concept of the tome is, I am rather enjoying my time writing in it. Of course, there are times that I simply can't open it and write. I pride myself on my ability to hold still and take out my prey right when it is most vulnerable. But as of late, my thoughts seem to wander. The tome is a wonderful place for recipes, to talk of simple pass-times and such.
But even more than this, I am finding myself wanting more and more to be social. I have never been much of a social creature and at times, I have gone for weeks without speaking a word to anyone or anything. My beasts understand me without my needing to speak, as I guide them with motions and other cues. But... I have found that this book has the potential to get me into a lot of trouble, if I let it.
I have been told at times that I wear my heart on my sleeve. At first I did not understand this adage. But now that I am older and I understand more, I realize this assumption was correct. At times, I wonder if it would be best not to speak my mind so much. But why wouldn't I want people to understand me? My motives and logic, my true intentions and feelings. I've never been one to hide how I feel about anything, or anyone.
The people of the book, I read how they write to me and I wonder how truthful they are simply because I believe they are being sincere and honest with me. I don't second-guess what they write. I wouldn't think they would have any reason to due to the anonymity of the book. But sometimes, this one girl in particular... I truly wonder about. She seems so quiet, reserved. I like to speak with her because she genuinely seems to take my suggestions and use them. I admit, it warms my heart to think someone regards my suggestions so highly.
-Within the pages of the journal are a few wildflowers, as if he picked them and tucked them within the pages to preserve them.-
But even more than this, I am finding myself wanting more and more to be social. I have never been much of a social creature and at times, I have gone for weeks without speaking a word to anyone or anything. My beasts understand me without my needing to speak, as I guide them with motions and other cues. But... I have found that this book has the potential to get me into a lot of trouble, if I let it.
I have been told at times that I wear my heart on my sleeve. At first I did not understand this adage. But now that I am older and I understand more, I realize this assumption was correct. At times, I wonder if it would be best not to speak my mind so much. But why wouldn't I want people to understand me? My motives and logic, my true intentions and feelings. I've never been one to hide how I feel about anything, or anyone.
The people of the book, I read how they write to me and I wonder how truthful they are simply because I believe they are being sincere and honest with me. I don't second-guess what they write. I wouldn't think they would have any reason to due to the anonymity of the book. But sometimes, this one girl in particular... I truly wonder about. She seems so quiet, reserved. I like to speak with her because she genuinely seems to take my suggestions and use them. I admit, it warms my heart to think someone regards my suggestions so highly.
-Within the pages of the journal are a few wildflowers, as if he picked them and tucked them within the pages to preserve them.-