im all alone
My mother finally noticed the blood today... I was about 2 leave with my friends when she saw the stain on my sleeve. she asked what it was from, i told her i got scraped by my bookshelf, i couldn't tell her the truth. the truth is i cut myself, im a cutter. i don't cut myself for attention like all of the other girls. no, i cut to relieve myself of all of the pain. because im a jewish emo girl from central jersey, and you know how horrible and painful that can be.
on the outside, i seem like the loud and cute normal girl thats always happy, but that is all a fascade. on the inside, im screaming for help. i yearn for something better. i want to live in the CITY, make a name for myself, become a famous singer or something of the like.
nobody understands me. esspeccially my parents. they think im all dirty and grungy, but im not. im EMO and cultured. just because i allow myself to show my true feelings doesnt make me horrible.
i went out with my friends a couple of nights ago. we went shopping at thrift stores and the salvation army. the clothing there has so much... sentimental value to it. it makes me feel like i can escape and live someone elses life.
i got new converses at hot topic today. they make me happy because they dont look fancy and that makes me stand out from all of those horrible jappy girls.
if you ever find yourself in need of an amazing book, read the perks of being a wallflower. i honestly cant say why... but it has this effect on me. its just so truthful and i relate to every single word in it. i was thinking about it tonight and it made me cry. i cry a lot, it makes me feel better.
speaking of crying, get the new dashboard cd. its amazing. they are so EMO.
they only have an acoustic guitar which makes them more real. you can play straight from the heart if the guitar isnt acoustic. the exception to that rule is taking back sunday. they make me cry too.
some people say EMO is a fad and that itll passbut that's not true. its a way to look at the world, to feel about it, a state of being you may say. so i'd like to finish up by saying that us EMO girls from central jersey arent leaving. we like listening to music that makes us cry, even though they playing songs with only 3 different chords and sing with bad voices. theyre music comes straight from the heart and thats all that matters. I like clothes that have one liners on them, theyre like converses, everyone and their mom has a pair but they show that i want to be differnet and that i dont care. moms calling me so i gotta go. after dinner ill probably put on some bad EMO music, cut myself, pretend i dont want everyone to know about it, and cry.
-dedicated to all of the EMO girls from central jersey-
-inspired by, alexa, heather, jess, kayla, sarah, alex, chelsea, katie, tricia, alana, ilana and alexis-
I love you guys. mwah lol
on the outside, i seem like the loud and cute normal girl thats always happy, but that is all a fascade. on the inside, im screaming for help. i yearn for something better. i want to live in the CITY, make a name for myself, become a famous singer or something of the like.
nobody understands me. esspeccially my parents. they think im all dirty and grungy, but im not. im EMO and cultured. just because i allow myself to show my true feelings doesnt make me horrible.
i went out with my friends a couple of nights ago. we went shopping at thrift stores and the salvation army. the clothing there has so much... sentimental value to it. it makes me feel like i can escape and live someone elses life.
i got new converses at hot topic today. they make me happy because they dont look fancy and that makes me stand out from all of those horrible jappy girls.
if you ever find yourself in need of an amazing book, read the perks of being a wallflower. i honestly cant say why... but it has this effect on me. its just so truthful and i relate to every single word in it. i was thinking about it tonight and it made me cry. i cry a lot, it makes me feel better.
speaking of crying, get the new dashboard cd. its amazing. they are so EMO.
they only have an acoustic guitar which makes them more real. you can play straight from the heart if the guitar isnt acoustic. the exception to that rule is taking back sunday. they make me cry too.
some people say EMO is a fad and that itll passbut that's not true. its a way to look at the world, to feel about it, a state of being you may say. so i'd like to finish up by saying that us EMO girls from central jersey arent leaving. we like listening to music that makes us cry, even though they playing songs with only 3 different chords and sing with bad voices. theyre music comes straight from the heart and thats all that matters. I like clothes that have one liners on them, theyre like converses, everyone and their mom has a pair but they show that i want to be differnet and that i dont care. moms calling me so i gotta go. after dinner ill probably put on some bad EMO music, cut myself, pretend i dont want everyone to know about it, and cry.
-dedicated to all of the EMO girls from central jersey-
-inspired by, alexa, heather, jess, kayla, sarah, alex, chelsea, katie, tricia, alana, ilana and alexis-
I love you guys. mwah lol