four pictures and a lot of rambling October 31, 2004, 14:01
left: mine; right: carol's
halloween makes me feel burnt or dead sometimes
because i always end up at home playing video games and handing out candy. i never do anything!! all my friends are too cool for me :( okay that's a partial lie, in reality i'm too lazy to do anything in the first place. but it's not like there's anything real to do. i mean i could.. go trick or treating but i have all the candy i want right here because few kids come to our house. haunted houses are crowded and thusly probably less scary, and i'm too young to see any scary movies. i'm too cynical for fun.
about an hour ago carol was in the front yard and i looked out and saw sadie and elvis out there, and my first reaction was "oh fuck!" and i pulled on my shoes and carol told me to come outside, she was amazingly calm, and that's when she noted to me that those dogs were not sadie and elvis. they were almost identical, i mean they fucking looked just like them. the only major difference was they had curled tails. the "sadie" even had the same colouring, almost exact. when i looked at them a bit longer i saw a bit more of the little things -- different face shapes, the sadie had a long neck and the elvis had a bigger build.. that type of thing. like he was fatter kind of, and a little shaggier on the tummy. it was so amazing, that someone else somewhere near here has two dogs that look like ours that also escape from their yards and run around town.
fucking amazing! my theory is that there's a portal to a parallel universe opened somewhere near here. most people think of parallel universes to be opposites, like a mirror, but i think they'd just be a bit different, like parallel lines in algebra (oh god, i've been paying attention). the opposite would probably be a perpendicular universe. the slopes of perpindicular lines are the opposite reciprical. it makes more sense, you know?
i always kind of had this idea in mind for a silly story of sadie and elvis living in our house as humans and them having a bunch of dogs running around with the personalities of my family. i've always wanted the story of someone living in a house full of dogs, like five to nine dogs. i don't know why, it just feels chaotic. but it's really just a character without a plot. where's the story? the action? it'd be boring. what're they gonna do? run out of food? have the dogs run out? it seems like those would be things that would happen kind of often. it's nothing.. climactic.
anyway, i found these pictures in my folder of this dress that clearly came from ebay clothing-surgery browsing, and i am so in love with it:
it's got to be the prettiest dress in the world, i mean just look at it. i want one so badly. i think i should get a serger and then practice with that outside-seamy-thing stuff because this dress makes me want to cry with glee. if i had it for myself.. i really wish that i had watched the auction, but i'm guessing i didn't because i didn't have the money (which makes me assume i found these pictures in august before cris paid me back).
i have no money for a serger. what little i do have i'm saving for concerts, because it looks like there aren't any more good ones coming up after coheed and cambria. robin isn't looking forward to blood brothers on thursday :( which i understand, but i seriously want to go badly. i'm hoping to find someone who can give me a ride. i doubt i can, and if i did i'm sure mom wouldn't let me go to dallas late at night in a car full of people she doesn't know for up to six hours including the ride there and back, and oh it may rain, and oh dallas is full of bad bad people and dear god she makes me want to vomit.
the only other people i know who like blood brothers is cris, who asked for me to give him a ride, and maybe harold but i don't even really know that for sure. and he doesn't have a car. and i want to cry :( i don't want to force robin to go because i know her position, in going, sucks, so i guess i'll just wait around and hope blood brothers come back soon and don't hit it big in that time so i won't have to pay fifty dollars instead of ten.
getting back on the subject of pretty dresses, i want to make another i saw in a commercial for the shirley temple box set. it was black and white and lacey, and shirley wore it for christmas (was the movie 'heidi'? oh who cares about that little girl anyway) and i want to sketch it out along with a few of the other ideas i've been kicking around (ones i didn't see on little children on tv). i really don't like wearing dresses and skirts anymore alone, because my tomboy side is kicking in again and i know how impractical it is for someone like me. i'd rather roll around in the mud with sadie and elvis than look hot for my big date or whatevs. i'll go on a date covered in mud
i've been kicking around on bmezine.com (body mod ezine) again, mostly because blaine has been rubbing his labret in my face so much and i am so seriously jealous and he likes to taunt me. i usually visit from time to time but now it's every freaking day that the computer works, i'm there. i'm not a big fan of labrets or anything, they're kind of towards the bottom of my wants list as far as piercings go, but for some reason blaine's really gets to me, probably because he's the only person in school with one with nice jewelry and a lack of infection, and it wasnt done by himself with a safety pin. and because he's my friend and he has plenty of opportunity to show it to me and wow this is lame. i guess it just reminds me of how much i want to get an industrial. and a corkscrew. and.. a few lining my ear in decreasing gauge size.. and a couple of those gorgeous... well anyway!
damnit.. today's blaine's birthday. :/
today is just passing by extremely slow, and i wish it'd speed the hell up. like my computer. OOOH BURN