Undecided.
Well, I've been a little undecided lately and torn.
See, lately I've been tossing around the idea of having another baby. I bet everyone just blinked real hard ^^;
* sighs * The reason being is because I've been feeling that "I want to be a mother" instinct again. And I don't know if its because I'm trying to fill the void that Daniel would have been in, had he lived to term, or if its a true desire to have another. My finances are in hell right now, we have no vehicle to call our own thanks to the A-hole mechanic.
And to make it worse, its seems like hubby wants another one too. Practically every baby we come across we get that sappy look in our eyes and we're probably thinking the same thing.. "I want another". Sucks. It really does. I don't want the same guilt feelings I had when Daniel was discovered with the pregnancy test. It damn near destroyed me when I learned of the miscarriage.
So, now I don't know what to do. And its not just a small desire, its a great big one! When your making cow eyes at someone else's kid, its a little obvious that another one is wanted.
Sometimes I want to shoot myself....
See, lately I've been tossing around the idea of having another baby. I bet everyone just blinked real hard ^^;
* sighs * The reason being is because I've been feeling that "I want to be a mother" instinct again. And I don't know if its because I'm trying to fill the void that Daniel would have been in, had he lived to term, or if its a true desire to have another. My finances are in hell right now, we have no vehicle to call our own thanks to the A-hole mechanic.
And to make it worse, its seems like hubby wants another one too. Practically every baby we come across we get that sappy look in our eyes and we're probably thinking the same thing.. "I want another". Sucks. It really does. I don't want the same guilt feelings I had when Daniel was discovered with the pregnancy test. It damn near destroyed me when I learned of the miscarriage.
So, now I don't know what to do. And its not just a small desire, its a great big one! When your making cow eyes at someone else's kid, its a little obvious that another one is wanted.
Sometimes I want to shoot myself....