Holy Mother of GOD! I LIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIVE!
So its basically been AGES since i was last here. So much going on. So much I didn't write about. So much I didn't think anyone would be very interested in anymore. Or even cared about really.
But what can I say? The year is almost out and nearly all my dreams are coming true. I am nearly rid of the man I was once so happy to be with and so ready to re-find myself all at the same time. I know I can ever be totally the same anymore. I can't. I'm a mother now with far too many responsibilities in my life.
But that's ok. I can go back to be me...with a twist!
I wish I could have done some things differently. And with a job as well. But as it turns out, Fate is a bitch and I wish the weaver of my Fate, I do believe that is Clotho, would DECIDE what she wants my destiny to be. I thought I had found mine, but alas, not to be so. Fine. I can deal with that. Its just the fucking around with it I find I can't handle. CHOOSE already if you have one for me so I can get on the right damn path! I've wasted enough of my life, and the only good thing you gave me Clotho was my son!
Anyway...I do have some good news to impart. I do have my own apartment now! w00t! GO ME!! I just need a job so I'm just not dependent on the damn child support I'm getting right now, which, by the way, is a piddling amount.
And I just want to say... I miss you guys and the fun we used to have. I'm too scared that you don't want to be my friend anymore after the way I've been and shut you all out when I should have reached out for you all.
I hope one day you guys can forgive me.
Love you always....
Silverfox-chan =^.^=
PS
MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR AND BLESSED YULE!!
But what can I say? The year is almost out and nearly all my dreams are coming true. I am nearly rid of the man I was once so happy to be with and so ready to re-find myself all at the same time. I know I can ever be totally the same anymore. I can't. I'm a mother now with far too many responsibilities in my life.
But that's ok. I can go back to be me...with a twist!
I wish I could have done some things differently. And with a job as well. But as it turns out, Fate is a bitch and I wish the weaver of my Fate, I do believe that is Clotho, would DECIDE what she wants my destiny to be. I thought I had found mine, but alas, not to be so. Fine. I can deal with that. Its just the fucking around with it I find I can't handle. CHOOSE already if you have one for me so I can get on the right damn path! I've wasted enough of my life, and the only good thing you gave me Clotho was my son!
Anyway...I do have some good news to impart. I do have my own apartment now! w00t! GO ME!! I just need a job so I'm just not dependent on the damn child support I'm getting right now, which, by the way, is a piddling amount.
And I just want to say... I miss you guys and the fun we used to have. I'm too scared that you don't want to be my friend anymore after the way I've been and shut you all out when I should have reached out for you all.
I hope one day you guys can forgive me.
Love you always....
Silverfox-chan =^.^=
PS
MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR AND BLESSED YULE!!