Edit for earlier post. ( Say What Happened? )
In the insaneness of my earlier post, I forgot to mention, I do have a friend I can lean on in hard times.
Its just that she has, I wouldn't say similar, but close to, the same issues I have. ( And a lot of the time, its because I've fucked up in some way )
And if there is one thing I hate doing, is burdening a friend who already seems overwhelmed by her own problems. I hate it.
I know that seems nuts, especially when I constantly bitch and moan over IM, especially if its over trivial shit. But its true.
I feel inadequate. Like a loser. And no matter what anyone says contrary to what I believe, I'll always feel that way.
And that feeling of isolation just grows.
Make any sense?
God I hope so because even I don't know if it does. * sighs *
Its just that she has, I wouldn't say similar, but close to, the same issues I have. ( And a lot of the time, its because I've fucked up in some way )
And if there is one thing I hate doing, is burdening a friend who already seems overwhelmed by her own problems. I hate it.
I know that seems nuts, especially when I constantly bitch and moan over IM, especially if its over trivial shit. But its true.
I feel inadequate. Like a loser. And no matter what anyone says contrary to what I believe, I'll always feel that way.
And that feeling of isolation just grows.
Make any sense?
God I hope so because even I don't know if it does. * sighs *