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Evolutions of the Heart
Chapter 1
The voice within
By: xreadxmyxmindx (a.k.a. Candice Willman)
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Disclaimer: I do not own InuYasha or any of the characters from it. I wish I could own Sesshomaru though.
A/N: This is a new fic that I started. I really wanted to write a story about Rin and Sesshie but add my own thought into it. It won’t really consist of much of the other characters, maybe a scene here and there but otherwise it’s completely focusing on Rin and Sesshomaru, and also those tied to them such as Jaken and Ah-Un. I hope you enjoy my story from here on out and don’t be afraid to send your thoughts and such. I apologize ahead of time if I get anything wrong from the original story line. I haven’t seen every episode of InuYasha only really care for Sesshomaru and Rin. ^_^ Enjoy!
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There was nothing but darkness; no light could be seen for miles. A soft wind blew over the vastness of the area. From within the darkness, a flicker of a flame appeared looking as if it was dancing in waves of beauty along side the light breeze.
Foot steps echoed throughout the emptiness. A breath of air being drawn in quietly. Suddenly, eyes of pure white appeared reflecting a picture that cannot be clearly seen. A whisper to a silent dreamer.
“The time draws near.”
The eyes widen and fade as if they were never there leaving the words to echo inside the hollowness of the plain.
Sitting up suddenly, Rin awoke from her slumber with a start. Sweat rolled down her soft skin, dampening her hair and glistening across her pale face that glowed in the moonlight. Her features tensed as she forced herself to intake a deep breath and close her eyes. Her hand seeking her heart that beat awkwardly against her chest. Her mind searched the images that scrambled themselves over and over again.
“Wh-What does it mean?” She questioned quietly. She tried once more to calm herself by releasing a gasp of air and wiping the sweat from her brow.
“What does what mean?” A stern voice spoke from high within the tree tops. There her Lord Sesshomaru sat upon a branch, his eyes only focusing on her. He was leaning back against the tree like so many nights before.
Rin jumped, her Lord startling her with his words.
“Gomen, I did not know you were there Sesshomaru-sama.” Her voice was low as she bowed her head knowing that he could see her perfectly.
Sesshomaru closed his eyes and swiftly in one fluid movement glided his way down below to stand before his ward.
“You should be more aware of your surroundings. Sleeping is an excuse for the weak.” Turning his gaze from her he listened as her heartbeat quickened.
“That’s easy for you to say, one who doesn’t need sleep.” Her words were harsh and short as she forced herself to lie back down, her head lying against the stomach of Ah-Un.
Sesshomaru’s eyes widened at her disrespect. Searching her face, he found only questions. His eyes wandered across the soft features of his ward; from her face to her figure it was hard to believe that this child was no longer that. It had been years since their first encounter and Rin was no longer the small, obedient, and naïve child that she once was. A human aged much faster than that of a demon. Sesshomaru had never witnessed this before his own eyes; it was hard to believe that the short time to him did wonders on this human girl.
Listening closely to her heartbeat as it began to soften its beat and slow its pace, he noted that it didn’t take long for the young Rin to fall back into her slumber.
Walking across the small clearing, he made himself as comfortable as possible against a fallen branch. His eyes still rested upon her form as his mind raced for answers. Since when did this girl become so defiant to her Lord?
It seemed as if it was only yesterday that she wandered out on her own in search of wild flowers to pick for her Lord. She had grown so much since then and it was odd that Sesshomaru was only now noticing.
To him she was still a child even if her appearance said otherwise. Closing his eyes, his mind was flooded with memories of Rin in her childhood. The laughter she shared with him and the banter between her and Jaken that never ended. Rin followed Sesshomaru-sama everywhere never leaving the demons side. He found it odd that a human would want to remain by his side, but he couldn’t change her mind. He knew that other youkai found it to be a weakness to use against him, but it didn’t seem to bother him. This Sesshomaru would protect Rin no matter the foe.
Her words rang in his ears, “That’s easy for you to say, one who doesn’t need sleep.” Sesshomaru snorted softly and shook his head.
“This Sesshomaru does not require sleep to survive. No demon does. It is an option not like it is for humans, the weaker species.” His words were spoken mainly for his own pleasure even though he knew that Rin could no longer hear it didn’t matter. He would not allow a mere human to say such things to try and stir his emotions.
“Hn.” Rin moaned gently in her sleep, her form tossing to the other side.
Sesshomaru found himself looking over her once more. It seemed that her dreams were troubled this night. He wondered if they were the dreams that she was haunted by as a young child. The memories of her parent’s death.
He could remember those many nights that she would awake crying, each salty tear falling from her eyes stinging into Sesshomaru’s heart. He didn’t know how to comfort a child. He never received such antics when he was a young pup, so to him comforting such weakness was absurd.
Sesshomaru knew that she yearned for him to dry her tears but all that he could manage was a simple pat on the back and listen to her as she cried out her sorrows. It seemed to be enough for she would eventually just fall back asleep but not without being beside her Lord Sesshomaru.
“Lord Sesshomaru-sama will protect Rin from the bad youkai.” Her words were mixed with sobs.
But that was a long time ago. She no longer came to him in tears from a bad dream. For some reason Sesshomaru missed those days even though he couldn’t understand why.
Somehow amidst his thoughts, Sesshomaru managed to fall into a light slumber.
Daylight approached, the sun lifting slowly into the morning sky to awaken the world from its sleep.
Rin sat up from her resting spot and rubbed her eyes with her hands to help adjust to the sudden brightness. Yawning, she stretched her form out, her back arching and her arms rose above her head to awaken her muscles after their rest. Pushing herself from the ground, she stood and eyed the small camp that her and her company had made.
Sesshomaru-sama was of course as always, no where in sight. Jaken sat beside a small fire, humming some tune to himself as Ah-Un exited to the forest to find food for itself.
“I wonder where Sesshomaru-sama went off to this time.”
Stepping over to her small bag that she had managed to gain over the years from the Miko Kagome. She pulled out her bathing materials and smiled. Today felt like a nice day even after such disturbing dreams. She still couldn’t quit understand what they meant but she chose to leave them be for now.
Starting off towards the hot spring that was near by, she sighed as she finally found what she sought. There before her was one of the most beautiful things that she could ever want, a hot spring with no one else around.
Setting her clean kimono upon a rock she quickly began to undress, removing her obi first and letting her kimono slide off her shoulders to fall to the ground at her feet.
Stepping into the hot water, she released a breath and jumped a little at the temperature. Walking further into the hot spring she laid her head back against a rock and relaxed in the silence.
“Boy does that feel good…” Closing her eyes she made sure her ears were still alert to her surroundings. Over the years Sesshomaru was sure to teach her some techniques to protect herself. But only enough so she could manage, he told her he wouldn’t train her any further till she was of age.
Her eyes opened suddenly at the thought.
“My birthday…” Rin said softly.
Realizing that it was only a week away she smiled. “I wonder if he will stay true to his word.”
Growing up with the Dog Demon, Rin had been through a lot that most children her age would have nightmares for the rest of their lives of. But to her, she was fine as long as her Lord Sesshomaru-sama allowed Rin to remain by his side. Since her parents were deceased and she had no other, after Sesshomaru saved her life, she vowed to follow him where ever he may go.
Sesshomaru had always been a work of art to Rin. His beauty surpassed all others. His long silver hair, how she yearned to run her fingers through each strand. In fact she had attempted many times when she was younger, but it was no use. She also enjoyed his youkai markings upon his face. It was as if each one was a painter’s masterpiece.
Rin stopped her thoughts from continuing to trail. A lot had happened since those years. She had matured into a woman without Sesshomaru realizing. Jaken had noticed and each time he said anything about it to Sesshomaru, he was beaten almost to the last inch of his life.
A small laugh escaped her mouth at that thought. She felt bad for laughing at Jaken’s expense but it was just to amusing how he seemed to be so close to death many times at the hands of his Lord.
Rin still wasn’t accustomed to her now matured body. Her legs, long and flawless with the beauty of a goddess’s. Her tummy flat and hips wide. Her hair now long past her lower back. And her chest had grown to accentuate her female body. Still she was not used to any of it. It made her feel uncomfortable and dirty knowing that she was on the verge of becoming a woman. She still remembered her first period and the reaction it had brought from her Lord.
He refused to be around her for that week, both his and her hormones not under their control. He had said something about the female body calling to youkai such as him and it was an urge hard for even he to fight.
Of course Rin didn’t question, it was her Sesshomaru-sama after all.
A movement in the bushes behind her brought Rin back to reality. She didn’t jump or move in any way to let whom ever had snuck behind her know that she was aware of their movement. Instead she continued to bathe, submerging herself completely beneath the hot water.
Sesshomaru sniffed the air smelling Rin close by. Moving through the trees he found what he was looking for. He should of known that she would be at the hot spring at this time. Choosing to stay cloaked within the trees he watched as she disappeared beneath the water which to him was a good thing. He didn’t want it to appear like he was looking in on her bathing. Thinking twice about that he shook his head. When did he allow himself to ever even consider looking in on her like that? Just because she was older now and matured for a human, it was still that little Rin that came crying to him in the middle of the night.
“Sesshomaru-sama you can reveal yourself. I know you’re there.” Rin’s words startled Sesshomaru from his thoughts.
He glanced back at the hot spring to see a fully clothed Rin. How did that happen? Just a minute ago she was within the water. Shaking his head he stepped out from the bushes and made himself visible.
“You shouldn’t have wandered off by yourself. It is still not safe here and you know that.” Sesshomaru spoke harshly, that was the only way he knew how. His eyes never met hers though.
Rin grunted. “Yes I know, and I was safe enough to hear you within the bushes was I not? So don’t treat me as if I’m still a child Sesshomaru-sama.”
Sesshomaru was surprised at her tone. “Since when does Rin speak to this Sesshomaru so freely? Do not forget your place Rin. You are still my ward and I am still your Lord. It would do you good if you remembered that.” Without saying anymore, he turned quickly to walk away.
“Hurry and finish your daily bath and return to camp. We will be leaving shortly.”
Rin growled as he walked away. Why did he insist on reminding her that she was only human? He continuously shoved at her that she was lower than him. Even though she knew it was the truth but her blood boiled at it. She didn’t know why, but the past year or so she couldn’t stand being looked at as if she was nothing.
Sesshomaru hated humans, this she knew. But she thought that she was an exception. He kept her with him all these years but still, did he hate her also? She was weak and disgusting. She heard those words about humans so many times before from her Lord’s mouth. Why did it bother her so much now?
Gathering her belongings, she began her way back to their camp slowly, only to anger him further. She seemed to enjoy that these days. Seeing just how far she could push her Lord became a new past time. She didn’t quit understand it herself but she yearned for more of his attention. A glance, a word, anything from him would make her happy even if it was out of anger.
Walking back into the small clearing, there she found Ah-Un, Jaken, and Sesshomaru all awaiting her arrival from the hot spring. Averting her eyes shyly to the ground she stepped over to her bag and placed her belongings within.
“The time draws near for our departure.” Sesshomaru spoke with that cool and stern tone that he alone could manage.
Rin’s heart began to beat faster against her chest, pounding to be set free. Her mind flashed with images and the words of her dream rang in her ears. Grabbing a hold of her head she hunched over slightly against the tree in pain.
“Rin?” Jaken, the annoying toad like demon asked the girl.
Sesshomaru moved quickly to her side to catch her right before she hit the ground completely.
“Ah, what is that…?” Rin’s words were full of pain, her eyes squeezing shut in agony.
“What is what? Rin, what’s wrong?” Sesshomaru managed to ask in his own concerned tone but came out a little harder than anticipated.
Her body throbbed as the words continued to ring within her. Shaking her head, she clenched her heart once more, her eyes finding Sesshomaru’s. Her face flushed at the realization of being in her Lord’s grasp and she attempted to stand on her own.
“I’m fine Sesshomaru-sama…” Her words didn’t seem to convincing.
“This Sesshomaru does not understand the weaknesses of such human behavior but I am not blind.” Lifting her quickly into his arm, he placed her on the back of Ah-Un.
“You shall remain here until this Sesshomaru sees Rin can continue fine on her own.” Without allowing her to have a response, he turned from her quickly and began his path. Ah-Un and Jaken following loyally behind.
Rin blushed once more her skin burning from where his hand had been. He didn’t touch her often, but when he did, she felt as if her body was going to melt. Sighing, she closed her eyes and rested upon the two headed demons back as she was told, but only until her body stopped from betraying her.
What did it all mean? The dreams, the voice, the flame, everything was making no sense to Rin. She had never had a dream like that before, and frankly it was beginning to worry her. It was as if the voice inside her head was real, coming for her, and warning her.
“The time draws near.”
She couldn’t make out if the voice was male or female or even youkai or human. It was a mixture of tones, almost as if it was more than one person speaking at one time. Opening her eyes, she watched above the many branches from trees flying by.
Rin felt weak. She had shown such weak behavior in front of her Lord which was the last thing she wanted to do. She hated his words of superiority. His looks of disgust at her frail human body. It pained her heart. Why did I have to be born human? Why am I cursed to want to be so much more?
Without realizing, her thoughts lulled her into darkness, her body giving into sleep once more.
“Soon…” The voice within her mind spoke once more.
Sesshomaru glanced back at his ward to find her sleeping upon Ah-Un. He felt unease for some reason. Something was off and he couldn’t put his finger on what it was. His eyes returning to the path ahead, he decided to think more of it later and just find their next destination before Rin awoke.
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A/N: Sooo that’s the end of chapter 1! What do you think so far? Please review and let me know. I should have the next chapter up soon. Again sorry if anything seems out of character or wrong to anyone but this is after all fanficiton and I am trying my best to stay true to the characters.
Next time, will Rin find out the true meaning behind the voice within her mind? Her birthday draws nearer and its as if the world is counting down. Sesshomaru can’t do anything to help his ward from her own mind. But will it turn out to be more than just Rin’s thoughts? Someone is coming for Rin, and there is nothing in this world that can stop it.