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blah im sick and its making me angry.
so anyway, yesterday i went to ryans going away party. it wasnt really anything that exciting because it was mainly just his family there. we sat in anthonys room though with his little sister kaitlin and a couple of her friends and just talked until the food was ready. i wasnt hungry though so i only ate a small piece of cake. michele got there late because she had a class. brandon suggested to ryan we all hang out later and he agreed..michele came up with the idea of going bowling and everyone was excited about it except ryan. he wanted to go to the movies, which none of us really wanted to do. usually i dont mind going to movies, but yesterday i really just didnt feel like sitting down to watch a movie, i wanted to do something active. so michele said she would call us when they decided..and she did..when they were ALREADY AT THE MOVIES. ugh, i just think that is SO rude. because hello, its obvious that even if we wanted to go to the movie, we couldnt have made it in time! so they said theyd call us when the movie was over and we could go bowling. but go figure, they never called. it just makes me so mad that ryan is doing this! i mean hes leaving in like a week or two and he doesnt even want to hang out with anyone but fucking michele! SHE tries to get him to hang out with me & brandon but he seriously only likes being alone with michele, all-the-damn-time. its annoying. but i guess i shouldnt care, because im used to it. i just hate when friends exclude me because of their bf's or gf's because i make damn sure i dont do that to my friends!! ugh!
so after the party i came home and watched a little bit of tv while brandon went to his friend's apt to play some game that hes been into for the past few months. like every freakin saturday lately he'll go play that game and it really annoys me because he drives literally almost an hour away just to go play it, and he always promises he'll never be too tired to hang out with me when he gets home..but i know better! hes ALWAYS tired when he gets home. so whenever he tells me he wont be, i just dont even expect to see him that day because he always breaks his promise. so last night i drove to his friend's apt since it was only on nasa road 1 and i watched him play his stupid little game..it was so obvious i was bored out of my mind so he said that when he left we could do whatever i wanted. and it was already late so i mean wtf was there to do? nothing!! so he gave me money and his blockbuster card to go get whatever movie i wanted. then when we finally left and went back to his house, we didnt even watch it! and he promised we would! but ugh hes just a jerk. ive noticed lately that i never get my way in anything!! its always what HE wants to do..and then he gets mad at me when i dont suggest things..but thats only because everytime i suggest something he comes up with some reason that he doesnt wanna go there. then if i tell him he does or says something wrong he'll get mad at me and turn it all around to where *i* am in the wrong..so when we fight i dont even bother saying anything back to him because no matter what i say he has some smart ass shit to say back..so then of course when i DONT say anything at all he gets even more mad..so i just dont ever know wtf i should do! theres no point in arguing with him because he really doesnt think he ever does anything wrong. how can he not see that hes being totally selfish? he said that he doesnt ever do what *i* wanna do because im not aggressive enough..pfft, okay well if thats what it takes to get my way i'll just be a total fucking bitch for the next few months and see how much he likes that.
as i was typing this he called and said he was gonna actually come over to my house to watch the dvd we rented last night, but he would come in an hour. and i was just like why in an hour? why not now? whats more important than coming to see me right now? and he didnt even hesitate to answer "football" ! ugh..i mean he could have at least said "well its not more important than you but im watching football right now" but of course he doesnt.
for my birthday he was making me something but hes been procrastinating it all week long so obviously im not that important to him. he said it would only take a couple hours to make, but he put it off all the way until today and then he tells me it didnt come out the way he wanted it to and that i probably wont like it. well he should have started working on it at the beginning of the week!!! but he puts me off until he feels like it. its not even about getting my birthday present late, its about how 'important' im obviously not to him.
it sucks.
but things are going to change. and i dont think hes going to like it very much.
so anyway, yesterday i went to ryans going away party. it wasnt really anything that exciting because it was mainly just his family there. we sat in anthonys room though with his little sister kaitlin and a couple of her friends and just talked until the food was ready. i wasnt hungry though so i only ate a small piece of cake. michele got there late because she had a class. brandon suggested to ryan we all hang out later and he agreed..michele came up with the idea of going bowling and everyone was excited about it except ryan. he wanted to go to the movies, which none of us really wanted to do. usually i dont mind going to movies, but yesterday i really just didnt feel like sitting down to watch a movie, i wanted to do something active. so michele said she would call us when they decided..and she did..when they were ALREADY AT THE MOVIES. ugh, i just think that is SO rude. because hello, its obvious that even if we wanted to go to the movie, we couldnt have made it in time! so they said theyd call us when the movie was over and we could go bowling. but go figure, they never called. it just makes me so mad that ryan is doing this! i mean hes leaving in like a week or two and he doesnt even want to hang out with anyone but fucking michele! SHE tries to get him to hang out with me & brandon but he seriously only likes being alone with michele, all-the-damn-time. its annoying. but i guess i shouldnt care, because im used to it. i just hate when friends exclude me because of their bf's or gf's because i make damn sure i dont do that to my friends!! ugh!
so after the party i came home and watched a little bit of tv while brandon went to his friend's apt to play some game that hes been into for the past few months. like every freakin saturday lately he'll go play that game and it really annoys me because he drives literally almost an hour away just to go play it, and he always promises he'll never be too tired to hang out with me when he gets home..but i know better! hes ALWAYS tired when he gets home. so whenever he tells me he wont be, i just dont even expect to see him that day because he always breaks his promise. so last night i drove to his friend's apt since it was only on nasa road 1 and i watched him play his stupid little game..it was so obvious i was bored out of my mind so he said that when he left we could do whatever i wanted. and it was already late so i mean wtf was there to do? nothing!! so he gave me money and his blockbuster card to go get whatever movie i wanted. then when we finally left and went back to his house, we didnt even watch it! and he promised we would! but ugh hes just a jerk. ive noticed lately that i never get my way in anything!! its always what HE wants to do..and then he gets mad at me when i dont suggest things..but thats only because everytime i suggest something he comes up with some reason that he doesnt wanna go there. then if i tell him he does or says something wrong he'll get mad at me and turn it all around to where *i* am in the wrong..so when we fight i dont even bother saying anything back to him because no matter what i say he has some smart ass shit to say back..so then of course when i DONT say anything at all he gets even more mad..so i just dont ever know wtf i should do! theres no point in arguing with him because he really doesnt think he ever does anything wrong. how can he not see that hes being totally selfish? he said that he doesnt ever do what *i* wanna do because im not aggressive enough..pfft, okay well if thats what it takes to get my way i'll just be a total fucking bitch for the next few months and see how much he likes that.
as i was typing this he called and said he was gonna actually come over to my house to watch the dvd we rented last night, but he would come in an hour. and i was just like why in an hour? why not now? whats more important than coming to see me right now? and he didnt even hesitate to answer "football" ! ugh..i mean he could have at least said "well its not more important than you but im watching football right now" but of course he doesnt.
for my birthday he was making me something but hes been procrastinating it all week long so obviously im not that important to him. he said it would only take a couple hours to make, but he put it off all the way until today and then he tells me it didnt come out the way he wanted it to and that i probably wont like it. well he should have started working on it at the beginning of the week!!! but he puts me off until he feels like it. its not even about getting my birthday present late, its about how 'important' im obviously not to him.
it sucks.
but things are going to change. and i dont think hes going to like it very much.