And I continue to get older.
and moldier. and more depressing. this sucks.
So i'm procrastinating (big surprise) on my 25 page paper that was due like a month ago. I just spent the weekend catching up on season 2 of grey's anatomy (I'm well aware of the addiction), and was further putting off writing, or sleeping, or anything productive by reading all of my past entries of LJ ever. It was kind of sad, because I used to be a happy person. Just reading my entries from sophomore year, I realize I used to be a tiny bit interesting and a lot more social than I am now (which is not saying much, since my current social life is equivalent to nothing). What happened to me? Now my entries are all emo and stupid. Mostly cuz nothing goes on in my life, thus I really have nothing to write about except these stupid measly emo thought that pops into my head while I'm driving or in the shower or whatever. How sad has my life become? It could also be that before, this was all I knew, so I could be satisfied with it. But now I want more, and this is just filler until I get it. Or it could be that we're growing up, and all of my friends have jobs and lives and boyfriends and all that other useless crap :)
alas, another week of school awaits me. But seriously, what am I going to do with my life after school? Watching Grey's has made me want to become a doctor, but when have you ever been to a hospital that was even remotely like that? Every hospital I've ever been to is empty and forboding. There aren't people bustling around everywhere, and the doctors are most certainly not young and hot. Therefore, I will not disillusion myself and spend all those years trying to get into med school, only to one day wake up and realize that i never actually wanted to be a doctor, just merideth or cristina or izzy.
So i'm procrastinating (big surprise) on my 25 page paper that was due like a month ago. I just spent the weekend catching up on season 2 of grey's anatomy (I'm well aware of the addiction), and was further putting off writing, or sleeping, or anything productive by reading all of my past entries of LJ ever. It was kind of sad, because I used to be a happy person. Just reading my entries from sophomore year, I realize I used to be a tiny bit interesting and a lot more social than I am now (which is not saying much, since my current social life is equivalent to nothing). What happened to me? Now my entries are all emo and stupid. Mostly cuz nothing goes on in my life, thus I really have nothing to write about except these stupid measly emo thought that pops into my head while I'm driving or in the shower or whatever. How sad has my life become? It could also be that before, this was all I knew, so I could be satisfied with it. But now I want more, and this is just filler until I get it. Or it could be that we're growing up, and all of my friends have jobs and lives and boyfriends and all that other useless crap :)
alas, another week of school awaits me. But seriously, what am I going to do with my life after school? Watching Grey's has made me want to become a doctor, but when have you ever been to a hospital that was even remotely like that? Every hospital I've ever been to is empty and forboding. There aren't people bustling around everywhere, and the doctors are most certainly not young and hot. Therefore, I will not disillusion myself and spend all those years trying to get into med school, only to one day wake up and realize that i never actually wanted to be a doctor, just merideth or cristina or izzy.