Utter Madness
Utter Madness...
Tears of complete disray,
My body feels so very numb,
I wish that everything was okay,
But things just only turned bad,
Hurting my every thought of me,
AS I hold the safety pin, so mad,
IT slices at my bare skin, so white,
Letting the maroon blood drip elegantly,
Constantly, fighting against me, oh the fight,
Torturing what I have tried to believe,
Showing that I was so wrongly accused,
Of many wrong things, to only decieve,
But, then I have to have a grin of peace,
As the guy that I severly falling into liking,
Calls me, showing that he cared at least,
But then, I just purely sit and wonder,
Is this all just a cruel dream, or a game,
That is here to make me sit to ponder,
Oh utter madness, I am going insane,
Going to get crazy once, once, once again,
Feeling some sort of vile rude pain,
Take over everything that I had, and loved.
I hurt many other people around me,
Showing me that I am not worth their time,
Proving that I should open my eyes to see,
What I had done so very wrong this time.
But, I, I do not care any more this day,
For I discovered that there is nothing I can do,
As all of them just seem to run and stray,
Oh someone, someone, understand me, do not judge,
For I am not someone who I utterly crazy,
Just I am stuck into some place where I cannot budge,
Just somewhere, where I am completely insane and mad.
AH!!! Crazy me. Waht the fuck is my problem. Just shut the hell up April. Go call James and talk to him. he will make you feel better. SMile. Lind loves you. People love you. Just open up your eyes and don't go insane. Stop cuttin yourself, like you did... AR.
Tears of complete disray,
My body feels so very numb,
I wish that everything was okay,
But things just only turned bad,
Hurting my every thought of me,
AS I hold the safety pin, so mad,
IT slices at my bare skin, so white,
Letting the maroon blood drip elegantly,
Constantly, fighting against me, oh the fight,
Torturing what I have tried to believe,
Showing that I was so wrongly accused,
Of many wrong things, to only decieve,
But, then I have to have a grin of peace,
As the guy that I severly falling into liking,
Calls me, showing that he cared at least,
But then, I just purely sit and wonder,
Is this all just a cruel dream, or a game,
That is here to make me sit to ponder,
Oh utter madness, I am going insane,
Going to get crazy once, once, once again,
Feeling some sort of vile rude pain,
Take over everything that I had, and loved.
I hurt many other people around me,
Showing me that I am not worth their time,
Proving that I should open my eyes to see,
What I had done so very wrong this time.
But, I, I do not care any more this day,
For I discovered that there is nothing I can do,
As all of them just seem to run and stray,
Oh someone, someone, understand me, do not judge,
For I am not someone who I utterly crazy,
Just I am stuck into some place where I cannot budge,
Just somewhere, where I am completely insane and mad.
AH!!! Crazy me. Waht the fuck is my problem. Just shut the hell up April. Go call James and talk to him. he will make you feel better. SMile. Lind loves you. People love you. Just open up your eyes and don't go insane. Stop cuttin yourself, like you did... AR.