why does this have to be so difficult?
He sent me an email with a bunch of photos from our first few months.
He knows that all I wanted were those months back.
When everything was so perfect. And we both could never stop smiling.
We met up yesterday. I gave him a birthday card. And his book and sweatshirt back.
I figured he'd be wanting those back now.
He promised me everything I've wanted. That he would try so much harder.
But I still couldn't say okay and mean it 100 percent.
I did put up a fight with myself over it, though.
And it took a lot out of me to not just cave and say yes, okay, I will.
But today was an okay day.
It started off horribly. Something happened with some things I got in the mail today.
I felt like crying. But it can all be fixed.
Then my dad came and surprised me with this really nice backpack specially made to carry my mac.
It feels good having a parent to take care of you for the tiniest things like that.
Then we went to crackskull's and picked up our lunches nextdoor.
When I got home, I had gotten a message from mary's sister's friend.
He asked if everything was okay (in response to a bulletin I'd posted earlier about being upset with the mail thing.)
I said yes, everything was okay. But I explained what had happened.
Just now I got another message from him saying that if I need any help with it, he'd be around.
I told him that was really sweet of him and thank you.
Got another back from him saying that he knows the city really well, so if I'm not sure where to go, he'd probably know where anything is.
I love that there are sweet people in this world.
They make the world so much easier to deal with sometimes.