Not passed out
I'm working from home today because I'm really shaky from yesterday's doctor's appointment. But I am working. Just, y'know, without moving and while forcing myself to eat things.
In the aftermath of finally having true circulation in my fingers and not shaking (literally) anymore, I have realized two things about the dramatic convulsions/hyperventilation/oxygen-tank ordeal.
1 - Do I realize just how close I came to accidentally killing myself? The human body can only go so long without food and water.
2 - I'm going to have nightmares for years about losing all feeling in my hands, but knowing that they're forming claws that I can't get them out of. Every time I tried to fall asleep last night, I'd start to worry about my fingers and have to massage them and keep them straight. The moment I have nothing else to think about, this starts to creep up on me. **whimper**
Reporting: I've only been awake 20 minutes. Already, I've had 2 servings of juice. I think I'll do more juice in a bit and an "instant dinner" from TJ's for lunch. Not shaking (yay!), but do feel icky and overstuffed already.
In the aftermath of finally having true circulation in my fingers and not shaking (literally) anymore, I have realized two things about the dramatic convulsions/hyperventilation/oxygen-tank ordeal.
1 - Do I realize just how close I came to accidentally killing myself? The human body can only go so long without food and water.
2 - I'm going to have nightmares for years about losing all feeling in my hands, but knowing that they're forming claws that I can't get them out of. Every time I tried to fall asleep last night, I'd start to worry about my fingers and have to massage them and keep them straight. The moment I have nothing else to think about, this starts to creep up on me. **whimper**
Reporting: I've only been awake 20 minutes. Already, I've had 2 servings of juice. I think I'll do more juice in a bit and an "instant dinner" from TJ's for lunch. Not shaking (yay!), but do feel icky and overstuffed already.