waiting to watch grey's anatomy.
work totally pisses me off. i was supposed to work saturday morning, but today it is randomly changed to night. GOD. i made plans with jon for saturday and then after that there is a gathering with the girls at kt's house. LAME. my day is all fuckled up now. ha, fuckled. i told her that i had told my family i had the night off and they had planned a family dinner at 6, so that pretty much makes it a waste of time for me to work at all that day. i feel kind of bad for lying, but i do have plans. i just didn't want to tell her what they were and have her get mad. other people lie all of the time, so i figure once isn't going to kill me. it's not like the place would fall apart without me.
eh. she is calling tomorrow. i hope it's all okay.
anyway.
i have been thinking about a lot of things lately. i have a lot of regrets. a very recent one. i just don't know though. i could have pretended like i never found out, but what's the point? it was over, but then again it's kind of like... how much does one dramatize it.
i don't understand how i can be forever hopeful and at the same time be so negative.
:/
also i have been thinking a lot about school. i kind of want to keep it on the DL though because i don't want people trying to change my mind or anything similarly stupid. i just want to get out of here and get into a bigger city. i've also more or less narrowed my major down to criminal psychology. maybe i can nail a bunch of fuckers. although i do know that there would be times when i couldn't nail someone that i knew was guilty of some horrible act. :/ guess that's why i mostly decided not to be a lawyer too. that and the fact that i don't always believe in myself.
i'm getting a lot better at that though.
:)
i'd say that the majority of my wardrobe is now from american eagle. i love that store. except... their jeans don't fit me right anymore. oh well, the jeans there are pretty expensive anyway. i got two long sleeved shirts yesterday and a polo and today i decided that i wanted to get another sweatshirt so i went back and got a pink one. hehe. it's so difficult for me to find clothes that i like on me sometimes that when i do find things i buy them in bulk. HA! i do love those sweatshirts though<3. i like the purple one BUTTTTTTTTTTTT i can't get it because of things. it's okay though because one of my long sleeved shirts is the same color.
i hope saturday works out how i want it to.
PLEAAAAAAAAASE. can i just get what i want? i promise i wont get stuck up about it.
eh. she is calling tomorrow. i hope it's all okay.
anyway.
i have been thinking about a lot of things lately. i have a lot of regrets. a very recent one. i just don't know though. i could have pretended like i never found out, but what's the point? it was over, but then again it's kind of like... how much does one dramatize it.
i don't understand how i can be forever hopeful and at the same time be so negative.
:/
also i have been thinking a lot about school. i kind of want to keep it on the DL though because i don't want people trying to change my mind or anything similarly stupid. i just want to get out of here and get into a bigger city. i've also more or less narrowed my major down to criminal psychology. maybe i can nail a bunch of fuckers. although i do know that there would be times when i couldn't nail someone that i knew was guilty of some horrible act. :/ guess that's why i mostly decided not to be a lawyer too. that and the fact that i don't always believe in myself.
i'm getting a lot better at that though.
:)
i'd say that the majority of my wardrobe is now from american eagle. i love that store. except... their jeans don't fit me right anymore. oh well, the jeans there are pretty expensive anyway. i got two long sleeved shirts yesterday and a polo and today i decided that i wanted to get another sweatshirt so i went back and got a pink one. hehe. it's so difficult for me to find clothes that i like on me sometimes that when i do find things i buy them in bulk. HA! i do love those sweatshirts though<3. i like the purple one BUTTTTTTTTTTTT i can't get it because of things. it's okay though because one of my long sleeved shirts is the same color.
i hope saturday works out how i want it to.
PLEAAAAAAAAASE. can i just get what i want? i promise i wont get stuck up about it.