Some Thoughts on Why I Have Been a Hermit as of Late
Normally I keep to myself a fair bit, and of late I have been doing so more than normal. Notably last month I refrained from attending some monthly social events I normally go to. There is actually a damn good reason for this.
I've begun to delve into the causes of my Depression and Suicidal Thoughts. This is hard. The emotions I'm digging up are painful. It takes a lot of energy to keep from breaking down completely. I'd rather not reach a point where I have to check myself into hospital to keep from killing myself. Been there, done that, would rather not repeat.
I'm an Introvert. Massively so and doing anything social takes a lot out of me, even if I have a good time.
I'm going to try to attend at least one of my usual events this month. If it's a choice between looking after myself by staying home and going out and having a good time I'm going to stay home.
I really hope I'm able to be sociable come November. I'd be really sad if I was still in isolation mode and missed out on getting together with the cool Toronto NaNoWriMo people.
I've begun to delve into the causes of my Depression and Suicidal Thoughts. This is hard. The emotions I'm digging up are painful. It takes a lot of energy to keep from breaking down completely. I'd rather not reach a point where I have to check myself into hospital to keep from killing myself. Been there, done that, would rather not repeat.
I'm an Introvert. Massively so and doing anything social takes a lot out of me, even if I have a good time.
I'm going to try to attend at least one of my usual events this month. If it's a choice between looking after myself by staying home and going out and having a good time I'm going to stay home.
I really hope I'm able to be sociable come November. I'd be really sad if I was still in isolation mode and missed out on getting together with the cool Toronto NaNoWriMo people.