A letter to God.....
Ok, so anyone that knows me knows that I am basically a very caring, giving, forgiving charitable person (or at least I strive to be!). But, now it seems that my faith and patience are being tested to the extreme! I've worked hard. I've been understanding when things didn't go my way. I never expected to win a huge lottery. I put other people's wants and needs before my own. I am a charitable person.....I give money, clothing, my time.....I care about animals. My goodness...I feed half the neighborhoods' cats daily! I love my family (blood and adopted ones!). SO WHY are you punishing me so? WHY is it that I can't seem to be able to make one little trip to Maryland to visit my family? I've been trying since September now! Now it seems that the insurance company WON'T be covering the cost of the repairs to my transmission!!!!! Where am I suppose to get that kind of money from? I've never asked you for very much....I've given you the praise and glory.....I've spread your word through my work and words.....I've done everything you have asked of me.....I'm now so confused! David says that if this is all it takes to shake my faith than I must not of had much to start with! Big comfort there Dave. Little does he know how much and how long (and alone!) I have been serving and believing that an answer would come.....maybe not today....maybe not even tomorrow........but now......I'm doubting it will. Yes...I know......sometimes the answer is NO! I just find it so hard to believe that you would say NO to my seeing my grandbabies! If this is the way it is to be....than....well...I can't live with that answer!