maybe give me insight between black and white
things are improving.
I'm finding myself able to enjoy and look forward to the little things in life I have that I love and appriecate. The friends that are still here and love me and hang out with me now that I'm bored and school's over. there's that sense of normalcy again which makes life good. I'm looking forward to keeping busy over the summer at the rec pool an with my summer classes. soon enough, I'll be out of school and out of davis, so i'm going to relax and appriecate the ride. it's not that bad things that happened are stuff I'm forgetting about, but you can't flog yourself over shit forever. that doesn't serve any purpose. I'm gonna check out consoling and hopefully that will help me express my emotions better, for the most part I figure I'm just gonna be in the process of working through stuff myself, like anyone else. I've gotten my apologies out there for the stuff I did while super duper uncontrollably drunk, and I know that it probably won't ever be the same with those people, and that's just something to expect and except. They have a right to their feelings. I have to move on and find happiness with those who are in my life now. my aunt's coming down soon. it'll be nice to see her. I'm going to see my mom and sister at the end of summer sessions, so that's something to look forward to and have as a nice cap to summer.
I'm going to spend time with people who I won't see again after the summer, and with new people I've just started to meet. it's definitely a fork in the road. alot of things have happened to me this week that have rejunvenated me and made me feel better about myself, and with all the negative energy from before, it's really cleansing, I feel like I can breathe again.
I'm finding myself able to enjoy and look forward to the little things in life I have that I love and appriecate. The friends that are still here and love me and hang out with me now that I'm bored and school's over. there's that sense of normalcy again which makes life good. I'm looking forward to keeping busy over the summer at the rec pool an with my summer classes. soon enough, I'll be out of school and out of davis, so i'm going to relax and appriecate the ride. it's not that bad things that happened are stuff I'm forgetting about, but you can't flog yourself over shit forever. that doesn't serve any purpose. I'm gonna check out consoling and hopefully that will help me express my emotions better, for the most part I figure I'm just gonna be in the process of working through stuff myself, like anyone else. I've gotten my apologies out there for the stuff I did while super duper uncontrollably drunk, and I know that it probably won't ever be the same with those people, and that's just something to expect and except. They have a right to their feelings. I have to move on and find happiness with those who are in my life now. my aunt's coming down soon. it'll be nice to see her. I'm going to see my mom and sister at the end of summer sessions, so that's something to look forward to and have as a nice cap to summer.
I'm going to spend time with people who I won't see again after the summer, and with new people I've just started to meet. it's definitely a fork in the road. alot of things have happened to me this week that have rejunvenated me and made me feel better about myself, and with all the negative energy from before, it's really cleansing, I feel like I can breathe again.