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I don't know whats going on...
There are two justin's almost... One of them thats the same as it's always been and one who lives in ottawa, who was born last year.
It's terribly confusing
I feel like I betrayed someone. I feel like I'm ready to die and just let one of them take overr, but at the same time I'm not prepared to lose Callie, Amber, Shannon, Brendan, Bridgette... all those I ever cared for in my life. But if I don't, I lose Nikki, Leah, Jack, Kevin... All those who have grown to actually understand me...
I had a long talk with Nikki today...It was semi disturbing. She's so much like me, minus some creativity. Sometimes it is scary. Other times... comforting to know that someone I actually get to see understands me. Hell... we were talking about books and I was shocked as we were comparing this authors writing style. She's so different when we're online. When we're near each other its a constant fight, and an amusing one at that.
She looked like such a slut in that cheerleading outfit so I had to make fun of her... my jaw hurts a bit but I never stopped!!! :)
I miss both of you so much...
christmas is shaping up to be hell... I'm so sorry callie and shannon (and a bit to you brendan) I need to figure this out now. Its a major piss off.
happy festivities to all you out there, wish I could be a part of them.
There are two justin's almost... One of them thats the same as it's always been and one who lives in ottawa, who was born last year.
It's terribly confusing
I feel like I betrayed someone. I feel like I'm ready to die and just let one of them take overr, but at the same time I'm not prepared to lose Callie, Amber, Shannon, Brendan, Bridgette... all those I ever cared for in my life. But if I don't, I lose Nikki, Leah, Jack, Kevin... All those who have grown to actually understand me...
I had a long talk with Nikki today...It was semi disturbing. She's so much like me, minus some creativity. Sometimes it is scary. Other times... comforting to know that someone I actually get to see understands me. Hell... we were talking about books and I was shocked as we were comparing this authors writing style. She's so different when we're online. When we're near each other its a constant fight, and an amusing one at that.
She looked like such a slut in that cheerleading outfit so I had to make fun of her... my jaw hurts a bit but I never stopped!!! :)
I miss both of you so much...
christmas is shaping up to be hell... I'm so sorry callie and shannon (and a bit to you brendan) I need to figure this out now. Its a major piss off.
happy festivities to all you out there, wish I could be a part of them.