you were once ever so sweet to me
i feel like i'm going back to the bitter shit i was once in
before i met the most amazing person ever
all the happiness i've gained in the recent years are slowly wearing away with the loneliness that i'm going through
i'm trying not to go back to the dark sadness i was once in before
so i normally keep myself busy by going out and taking photographs or reading but its so hard to concentrate
one of my favorite quotes is "carpé diem"
which means "sees the day"
but its hard when the only way i can sees the day is buy pooring my heart for someone who really doesnt seem to care
i'd rather "sees the past"
my past was so much more fulfilling then what i'm living in today
thats why people ask why i seem to dwell more on my past
because although i'm doing things now that most people only dream of
i'd rather have the happiness i had before
who would have known that one person can make another's whole life amazing as it once was
you know that feeling getting into an ice cold shower and you get that icy refreshing feeling...or when you get up on christmas morning and you get all excited cuz its nice and cold and you know you dont have school and you get a bunch of shit...
thats how i always felt when i was with her, i was always happy and refreshed
because i was always so stressed from work and school
she always helped relieve all that stress and she had this amazing ability to make the worst day into an amazing day
i'd trade my past for my present in a heartbeat
just so i can re-live all the wonderful moments that i was lucky enough to experience
last weekend i actually went to mission bay in san diego where jess and i said "i love you" for the first time
i didnt really tell her but i sat there by myslef until sunset and until the seaworld fireworks went off
just sitting there on the bench i could almost see and here it happening all over again
it was a nice feeling
and watching all the couples walking along the boardwalk holding hands
i could see our moment perfectly
i know that a lot of people hate me for my emoness right now
but i really dont give a fuck
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today is the 2nd week that i dont have internet or cable in my new condo which is a pain in the ass
i'm gonna go golfing after work to knock some balls around to blow off some steam
i know i seem so bitter right now
but i'm sure things will look up sooner or later
hopefully sooner than later
before i met the most amazing person ever
all the happiness i've gained in the recent years are slowly wearing away with the loneliness that i'm going through
i'm trying not to go back to the dark sadness i was once in before
so i normally keep myself busy by going out and taking photographs or reading but its so hard to concentrate
one of my favorite quotes is "carpé diem"
which means "sees the day"
but its hard when the only way i can sees the day is buy pooring my heart for someone who really doesnt seem to care
i'd rather "sees the past"
my past was so much more fulfilling then what i'm living in today
thats why people ask why i seem to dwell more on my past
because although i'm doing things now that most people only dream of
i'd rather have the happiness i had before
who would have known that one person can make another's whole life amazing as it once was
you know that feeling getting into an ice cold shower and you get that icy refreshing feeling...or when you get up on christmas morning and you get all excited cuz its nice and cold and you know you dont have school and you get a bunch of shit...
thats how i always felt when i was with her, i was always happy and refreshed
because i was always so stressed from work and school
she always helped relieve all that stress and she had this amazing ability to make the worst day into an amazing day
i'd trade my past for my present in a heartbeat
just so i can re-live all the wonderful moments that i was lucky enough to experience
last weekend i actually went to mission bay in san diego where jess and i said "i love you" for the first time
i didnt really tell her but i sat there by myslef until sunset and until the seaworld fireworks went off
just sitting there on the bench i could almost see and here it happening all over again
it was a nice feeling
and watching all the couples walking along the boardwalk holding hands
i could see our moment perfectly
i know that a lot of people hate me for my emoness right now
but i really dont give a fuck
--------------------------------------------------
today is the 2nd week that i dont have internet or cable in my new condo which is a pain in the ass
i'm gonna go golfing after work to knock some balls around to blow off some steam
i know i seem so bitter right now
but i'm sure things will look up sooner or later
hopefully sooner than later