(no subject)
Last night, I had a dream that this person that I thought was my friend called me and wanted to go out and see a movie together today. I told her, well okay but I currently hooked up to my chemo fanny pack so don't be freaked out about it and I'm going to have to take it slow. Surely just sitting through a movie won't be so bad? Hell, I do it all day at home. Bonus, that today is suppose to a be a little cooler than normal that I can wrap a flannel shirt around myself to hide the chemo pack.
Why the hell am I even thinking about this dream and why am I even dreaming about her? It's not like she bothered to call me at all during these three years of cancer treatment or even sent me an email or anything to see how I was doing. Even complete strangers helped me more than she ever did. All I really wanted more than anything during these years was a friend. Relying on the computer to be your human interaction? Bullshit. You can't take the computer with you to heaven and is that how you want people to remember you back in the real world?
Why the hell am I even thinking about this dream and why am I even dreaming about her? It's not like she bothered to call me at all during these three years of cancer treatment or even sent me an email or anything to see how I was doing. Even complete strangers helped me more than she ever did. All I really wanted more than anything during these years was a friend. Relying on the computer to be your human interaction? Bullshit. You can't take the computer with you to heaven and is that how you want people to remember you back in the real world?