i'm a snacker
i am full from too much chocolate soymilk. i want to smoke and i don't get out of work for another 2.5 hours. i saw two people walk by who i know, one stopped in.
i realized i was an awful friend to someone, i never helped her with her wedding like i said i would, i let her move to new york without seeing her, going to her wedding, nothing. another burnt bridge. kind of like every other friendship i have lost. i'm great at disappearing and leaving people behind. i can be an alien.
i just drift through life doing whatever i want, never allowing anyone to get in, say anything i should hear, because i don't want to hear it, don't want to be told what i should or shouldn't do, to behave this way or that, i am an escape artist, but i have to quit. i'm ashamed that i have built up walls, ashamed to go back to people and apologize and try to mend those relationships, i've never mended anything, i just move on, how do you fix things like that?
anyway, that's all. i'm full of soymilk.
i realized i was an awful friend to someone, i never helped her with her wedding like i said i would, i let her move to new york without seeing her, going to her wedding, nothing. another burnt bridge. kind of like every other friendship i have lost. i'm great at disappearing and leaving people behind. i can be an alien.
i just drift through life doing whatever i want, never allowing anyone to get in, say anything i should hear, because i don't want to hear it, don't want to be told what i should or shouldn't do, to behave this way or that, i am an escape artist, but i have to quit. i'm ashamed that i have built up walls, ashamed to go back to people and apologize and try to mend those relationships, i've never mended anything, i just move on, how do you fix things like that?
anyway, that's all. i'm full of soymilk.