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::cries:: I am home sick, again, today. I don't know what to do. I am seeing the specialist, I am getting all the damn tests done, but I just can't seem to get well. I am sick more than I am not lately. Sick is part of my life, yes, but not like this; it's ridiculous. If something doesn't give and give quick I am going to lose my job and my house and everything I have worked for in my life. Mom has been great, but come on, what employer can keep up with someone who has had to be out as much as I have? I can't afford to live on disability, my damn student loans alone would wipe that out. I have to work to have medical insurance. I have prayed. My pastor has prayed. I just don't know what to do.
Thank God for my babies. They have been getting me through. Lilli just curls up and sleeps with me. She either lays in my hand or under my chin and doesn't leave me. When I was curled up wanting to die in the bathroom Toby came to me and just sat on my shoulder the whole time. When I cry they are all with me giving me their love. If not for them I don't think I would even open my eyes half the time.
Thank God for my babies. They have been getting me through. Lilli just curls up and sleeps with me. She either lays in my hand or under my chin and doesn't leave me. When I was curled up wanting to die in the bathroom Toby came to me and just sat on my shoulder the whole time. When I cry they are all with me giving me their love. If not for them I don't think I would even open my eyes half the time.