hii.
these past few weeks, omg, i have been SUCH a [loser] home body. i'm pretty sure i'll soon succumb to social-ineptness. HAHA. and insomnia has still been ever so present. some days i just don't sleep. like, i actually make a conscious decision not to. yeh, it's retarded. and even if i've been up for like thirty hours and finally decide that i should sleep, i can only ever sleep for like, three hours maximum. yeh, that's even more retarded. and then like, other days, i'll sleep for fifteen hours. whatthefuck, i say.
of course, on those days that i choose not to sleep, i'm awake when everyone else is sleeping. and my brother and i voted against sky or cable so we only have the regular channels. that's five channels, people. from like, 1am-6am, i have a limited [extremely exciting [not really]] choice of bbc or fox news. and right now, it's 3:22am and i'm watching fox news. they just informed me that eating fish twice a week ROTS YOUR BRAIN. that's funny. it's cos we pollute the ocean and all the fish have all that fkn mercury in them. ohdear. there was this one boy [or something] that ate fish twice daily and he was once a star jock footballer dude and after eating so much fish, he couldn't even throw a damn football anymore. lol! [ok, i shouldn't laugh.]
omg. the other day, i managed to smoke an entire pack of cigarettes. [que: readers' vomiting out of disgust] i was like, rushing to finish that pack cos i told my friend that i was going to quit after that pack. and obviously, that didn't/wouldn't work out, cos now i'm fiending soooo badd. lol! i'm such a dork. but seriously, come december, when my parents arrive for the holidays from manila, i'm going to quit. byebye nicotine. hello still black lungs. lol.
so yeh.. i'm planning my california move in january. but i might be going to singapore/manila in january for a holiday [if daddy permits, fingers crossed], so that'll move my california move to february instead. but yes, when i get to cali, i'm going to get a job, get my ass back in a learning institution of some sort aaand.. get proper vocal lessons. i've been meaning to get these lessons for years and years and years. i don't even know why i've waited so long. i'm just stupid. i found this teacher on the internet that's like, the best in cali and she deals with all the famous peoples. she taught gwen stefani and the pussycat dolls! lolll. it's US$75 per half hour lesson but they're really intense daw. so i e-mailed her explaining my situation and she told me to call her when i get there. i really want this. reeeally. i want her, but she's more for people that are actually looking to pursue an actual singing career.. she says she can recommend other really good teachers if i just want lessons for whatever. i want HER damnit.
i got a video store membership this evening [finally, after like, ten months living here lol]. i got out elephant, raising victor vargas [for the nth time], carandiru, adaptation, waking life and donnie darko. i'm so excited! haha -neeerd-.
in december, i MUST buy pharrell's new solo album: in my mind. in february, i MUST buy sergio mendes' new album: timeless.
oh yeh.. and i CAN'T quit smoking juuust yet.. cos i'm going to cut down on my eating BIG TIME. i'm such a fkn PIG. i actually have been disgusted with my eating habits several times this week. welcome, COFFEE AND CIGARETTES DIET.
i've decided not to sleep again tonight.
of course, on those days that i choose not to sleep, i'm awake when everyone else is sleeping. and my brother and i voted against sky or cable so we only have the regular channels. that's five channels, people. from like, 1am-6am, i have a limited [extremely exciting [not really]] choice of bbc or fox news. and right now, it's 3:22am and i'm watching fox news. they just informed me that eating fish twice a week ROTS YOUR BRAIN. that's funny. it's cos we pollute the ocean and all the fish have all that fkn mercury in them. ohdear. there was this one boy [or something] that ate fish twice daily and he was once a star jock footballer dude and after eating so much fish, he couldn't even throw a damn football anymore. lol! [ok, i shouldn't laugh.]
omg. the other day, i managed to smoke an entire pack of cigarettes. [que: readers' vomiting out of disgust] i was like, rushing to finish that pack cos i told my friend that i was going to quit after that pack. and obviously, that didn't/wouldn't work out, cos now i'm fiending soooo badd. lol! i'm such a dork. but seriously, come december, when my parents arrive for the holidays from manila, i'm going to quit. byebye nicotine. hello still black lungs. lol.
so yeh.. i'm planning my california move in january. but i might be going to singapore/manila in january for a holiday [if daddy permits, fingers crossed], so that'll move my california move to february instead. but yes, when i get to cali, i'm going to get a job, get my ass back in a learning institution of some sort aaand.. get proper vocal lessons. i've been meaning to get these lessons for years and years and years. i don't even know why i've waited so long. i'm just stupid. i found this teacher on the internet that's like, the best in cali and she deals with all the famous peoples. she taught gwen stefani and the pussycat dolls! lolll. it's US$75 per half hour lesson but they're really intense daw. so i e-mailed her explaining my situation and she told me to call her when i get there. i really want this. reeeally. i want her, but she's more for people that are actually looking to pursue an actual singing career.. she says she can recommend other really good teachers if i just want lessons for whatever. i want HER damnit.
i got a video store membership this evening [finally, after like, ten months living here lol]. i got out elephant, raising victor vargas [for the nth time], carandiru, adaptation, waking life and donnie darko. i'm so excited! haha -neeerd-.
in december, i MUST buy pharrell's new solo album: in my mind. in february, i MUST buy sergio mendes' new album: timeless.
oh yeh.. and i CAN'T quit smoking juuust yet.. cos i'm going to cut down on my eating BIG TIME. i'm such a fkn PIG. i actually have been disgusted with my eating habits several times this week. welcome, COFFEE AND CIGARETTES DIET.
i've decided not to sleep again tonight.