BLAH HELP BLAH
ive been feeling really down lately...i miss having rachel around!!!! i miss you soo much girl...i wish that i could be apart of your life up there...it seems sooo fun..i feel like i dont even have friends anymore...its like yeah i do when they are down./....damn rachel you arent even gonna be here for my birthday :(...we will jsut have to celebrate when you come down for spring break....if you come down...
ive decided that i think i need to go see a therapist...i was thinking to myself about how much will power i dont have and about how low my self esteem is and that i feel like i have not control over anything anymore...i dont like it....so im gonna talk to my mom and see if she can find me someone good you know...i dunno....it just seems like i have no control over myself anymore...
me and thom are good...but i am non sexual and i know that it bothers him...im sorry babe if you re reading this...i just need to get it all out....but seriously guys i am not sexual at all..i wouldnt even think about it if people never brought it up...i think that there is a reason for it but i dont know why and maybe talking to a therapist...they will be able to figure all my shit out and i can get better and abck on track....
seriously tho...reading dannis and rachels entries makes me jelous that im not apart of thier lives....im not even apart of my life...i go to school and even tho im learning..im not studying...im not reading when i should...im not doing my assignments....im just doin a lot of nothing right now and i hate it....i feel like im going no where...
i dunno guys help me out!
ive decided that i think i need to go see a therapist...i was thinking to myself about how much will power i dont have and about how low my self esteem is and that i feel like i have not control over anything anymore...i dont like it....so im gonna talk to my mom and see if she can find me someone good you know...i dunno....it just seems like i have no control over myself anymore...
me and thom are good...but i am non sexual and i know that it bothers him...im sorry babe if you re reading this...i just need to get it all out....but seriously guys i am not sexual at all..i wouldnt even think about it if people never brought it up...i think that there is a reason for it but i dont know why and maybe talking to a therapist...they will be able to figure all my shit out and i can get better and abck on track....
seriously tho...reading dannis and rachels entries makes me jelous that im not apart of thier lives....im not even apart of my life...i go to school and even tho im learning..im not studying...im not reading when i should...im not doing my assignments....im just doin a lot of nothing right now and i hate it....i feel like im going no where...
i dunno guys help me out!