dear you
Dear you,
I realize that I can't keep trying to find it in myself to forgive you.
I can't. My heart can only take so much. You say you love me, you say you want to marry me?..
But if you loved me and felt that way then why won't you just stop fucking with my head. Telling me I'm doing everything wrong. I refuse to share you with anyone. And yes we've had really good times together, we really have. and ill cherish those times in my heart forever.But what counts is that i cant seem to trust you, your words have lost all meaning. So how can we exist, when all I think about is the newest way your going to lie or deceive me next? If your at her house that's why you turn on your phone so late in the morning? If you ever plan on leaving her like u say you are. I CANT FUCKING TRUST YOU ANYMORE. I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE. YOU KNOW HOW THEY SAY YOU CAN FORGIVE BUT YOU CANT FORGET. I CANT DO EITHER I CANT FORGIVE OR FORGET.
My heart isn't a welcome door mat for you to stomp your muddy fucking boots on it to smudge around and then walk away.
I don't think you ever really loved me you wanted to control me that's all.
Do you know how many nights i cried, how many times i worried.
that i waited outside of your old green house for 2 hours EVEN WENT UP TO YOUR ROOM when u sent me a text saying peace out bitch,
you just told me that were done, and then turning ur phone off for 8 hours,
and then telling me that even though i was inside a bus station crying you couldn't even tell me where you were, that you were doing "dishes " at someones house and that you could meet me at 5 oclock. I FUCKING NEEDED YOU THAT DAY. I was like roadkill to you,
and you still kept poking me with a stick.
You still never were straight up with me.
You fucked me every night. While you probably fucked Arianna every day.
This isnt the first time.
And I dont think this will be the last either.
You know my love was true baby,
Those notes i wrote you, the way i was always there when you needed me,
how i dropped everyone, you never could make such a sacrifice with me,
and now that i know the truth, and you find out why i was being treated the way you were
cause of your own selfishness and guilt from the other chick you called your girl too.
I tell you hope you have fun, peace out, and you come crying back to me,
telling me im the one you want.
But I just hope you know im not the one you want anymore, cuz youve changed me hardened me.
Fuck, the promise ring.
The baby that was growing inside of me a piece of me and you.
that you said you wanted, but then changed your mind.
Weve been through it all.
And if you wouldve done your part when it counted, wed be solid right now.
We wouldve been soo goood.
but really i could never forgive you.
WE ARE DONE
I realize that I can't keep trying to find it in myself to forgive you.
I can't. My heart can only take so much. You say you love me, you say you want to marry me?..
But if you loved me and felt that way then why won't you just stop fucking with my head. Telling me I'm doing everything wrong. I refuse to share you with anyone. And yes we've had really good times together, we really have. and ill cherish those times in my heart forever.But what counts is that i cant seem to trust you, your words have lost all meaning. So how can we exist, when all I think about is the newest way your going to lie or deceive me next? If your at her house that's why you turn on your phone so late in the morning? If you ever plan on leaving her like u say you are. I CANT FUCKING TRUST YOU ANYMORE. I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE. YOU KNOW HOW THEY SAY YOU CAN FORGIVE BUT YOU CANT FORGET. I CANT DO EITHER I CANT FORGIVE OR FORGET.
My heart isn't a welcome door mat for you to stomp your muddy fucking boots on it to smudge around and then walk away.
I don't think you ever really loved me you wanted to control me that's all.
Do you know how many nights i cried, how many times i worried.
that i waited outside of your old green house for 2 hours EVEN WENT UP TO YOUR ROOM when u sent me a text saying peace out bitch,
you just told me that were done, and then turning ur phone off for 8 hours,
and then telling me that even though i was inside a bus station crying you couldn't even tell me where you were, that you were doing "dishes " at someones house and that you could meet me at 5 oclock. I FUCKING NEEDED YOU THAT DAY. I was like roadkill to you,
and you still kept poking me with a stick.
You still never were straight up with me.
You fucked me every night. While you probably fucked Arianna every day.
This isnt the first time.
And I dont think this will be the last either.
You know my love was true baby,
Those notes i wrote you, the way i was always there when you needed me,
how i dropped everyone, you never could make such a sacrifice with me,
and now that i know the truth, and you find out why i was being treated the way you were
cause of your own selfishness and guilt from the other chick you called your girl too.
I tell you hope you have fun, peace out, and you come crying back to me,
telling me im the one you want.
But I just hope you know im not the one you want anymore, cuz youve changed me hardened me.
Fuck, the promise ring.
The baby that was growing inside of me a piece of me and you.
that you said you wanted, but then changed your mind.
Weve been through it all.
And if you wouldve done your part when it counted, wed be solid right now.
We wouldve been soo goood.
but really i could never forgive you.
WE ARE DONE