Another down post, skip it if you like
Lachlan and I didn't go for that walk last night. We spent the time looking for the bond lodgement form from our last place that seems to have mysteriously disappeared.
We didn't go for a walk tonight either, and because I was feeling gloomy and pathetic, we had pizza and icecream for dinner, instead of healthy Tuscan Chicken with pasta.
My psych appointment today was a whole lot of digging around in the embarrassing and upsetting "why don't I like sex" regions of my brain. Not overly fun. On the plus side, I got him to write me a note to take next time I try and donate blood, saying it would not affect my medication levels.
I feel crappy about myself at the moment. I've been trying really hard to eat healthier, and more often (which apparently is necessary, I've read and heard in a few places), and trying to exercise more. I don't think I'm losing weight at all, though. I might even have gained some. Ok, when I say weight, I mean centimetres - we don't actually have a set of scales.
I feel fat and ugly and ashamed of myself for not doing better at this healthy eating and exercise thing. I know people who have successfully done this. Why is it so difficult for me?
I've come to the conclusion that I suck.
We didn't go for a walk tonight either, and because I was feeling gloomy and pathetic, we had pizza and icecream for dinner, instead of healthy Tuscan Chicken with pasta.
My psych appointment today was a whole lot of digging around in the embarrassing and upsetting "why don't I like sex" regions of my brain. Not overly fun. On the plus side, I got him to write me a note to take next time I try and donate blood, saying it would not affect my medication levels.
I feel crappy about myself at the moment. I've been trying really hard to eat healthier, and more often (which apparently is necessary, I've read and heard in a few places), and trying to exercise more. I don't think I'm losing weight at all, though. I might even have gained some. Ok, when I say weight, I mean centimetres - we don't actually have a set of scales.
I feel fat and ugly and ashamed of myself for not doing better at this healthy eating and exercise thing. I know people who have successfully done this. Why is it so difficult for me?
I've come to the conclusion that I suck.