I reject your reality and Substitute my own!
Just putting it out here(since my parents don't read my LJ and Facebook is not safe from them) that I am close to totally wigging out. I've tried managing it through occupying myself with menial tasks, meditation of sorts, and trying not to think about it, but none of that is working. Tomorrow, the truth will come out and I'm not sure how it will be received. Tomorrow, I will also get $5. Possibly(probably) not right away, but sometime tomorrow, I believe that the cash shall be won. Am I going to explain what the hell I'm talking about? No, of course not. I can't because no one except myself and my confidante can know until tomorrow.
There are times when people just choose not to accept the gravity and reality of the world around them. Even they're tiny world consisting of themselves can contain such circumstances. Some would call this denial. Others call it selective memory. Some still call it smart. I call it substitution.
"I am not gay."
"I just can't be pregnant."
"He doesn't cheat on me."
"They'll tell me when they're ready."
"We can't have landed on the moon."
Do you get my point yet?
Anyways, I getting tired of keeping my grasp on reality at a death grip. Give me a few days to reject the things going on and substitue whatever the hell I want. Then, maybe I'll come back to your "real world" and all the things that are in it. I just need some time to let my mind wander. Oh, by the way, I'm not thinking any of those things I listed above, if you were wondering.
Later,
-S
There are times when people just choose not to accept the gravity and reality of the world around them. Even they're tiny world consisting of themselves can contain such circumstances. Some would call this denial. Others call it selective memory. Some still call it smart. I call it substitution.
"I am not gay."
"I just can't be pregnant."
"He doesn't cheat on me."
"They'll tell me when they're ready."
"We can't have landed on the moon."
Do you get my point yet?
Anyways, I getting tired of keeping my grasp on reality at a death grip. Give me a few days to reject the things going on and substitue whatever the hell I want. Then, maybe I'll come back to your "real world" and all the things that are in it. I just need some time to let my mind wander. Oh, by the way, I'm not thinking any of those things I listed above, if you were wondering.
Later,
-S