change... fear... which to trust?
im nervous for the future... but this time i have to fall through with what i say im going to do... i dont need them, her, i dont need it, i dont need anything but to be free.. shit i dont even know what its like. how nice it must feel...
i can only dream for now,
then wake up someday and feel it.... soon hopefully.
Its going to hurt so bad watching the process, but its necessary. the scariest thing is that i dont know if im making the biggest mistake of my life, or proceeding with the best thing that will ever happen to me.
im such a lost soul. im all alone, and i need to just go with something new because this repetant life of mine just isnt working.
for now i think this is the best thing to do...
i can only dream for now,
then wake up someday and feel it.... soon hopefully.
Its going to hurt so bad watching the process, but its necessary. the scariest thing is that i dont know if im making the biggest mistake of my life, or proceeding with the best thing that will ever happen to me.
im such a lost soul. im all alone, and i need to just go with something new because this repetant life of mine just isnt working.
for now i think this is the best thing to do...