I suppose I should update
Well, as my title may well explain, I should update. I haven't since May 28th. My other diary, noo, I update almost every day. But then again, I only opened this one up so I could write about all the crap no one wants to hear about.
I'm incredibly sadly indefiniately LONELY. I feel very alone in the world right now. I guess I should be over Jay by now, but nope. Five freaking days and it'll have been a month since we've been over. I guess I'm pretty pathetic, I can't let him go. And I know he sure as hell aint' coming back. I guess I'm still sort of sore as to WHY he broke up with me. He called me fricking jealous. Which, ha, I still dont' get. I mean, wouldn't y'all be jealous if your boyfriend spent way more time with his best female friend (who, he still liked, but let me get to that later)and then called you jealous when you were upset? See, I don't get that. And, of course, I'm peeved because I know DAMN well he liked Liz. When he was supposed to like me.
Well, don't I sound stupid in that paragraph. As usual, me me me. I wish I was NEVER like that. I'm not usually. I say this a lot "I'd rather 10 people be happy and me be miserable, if I'm the one that can make them happy." I mean, isn't it better that 10 people are happy rather than just one? I don't know...I love helping people and I know people's time and energy can be used to worry about people other than me. I'm really not that important.
NHS field day was fun. Manned the water station. It was great when we were mobbed. And then the middle school guys decided to throw water at each other and I was unfortunately in the line of fire. And I got sunburned on my arms. I NEVER GET BURNED. How odd.
Tomorrow is the last day of school. YAY! And then the very next monday drivers ed! YAY! (note the sarcasm). Am currently writing a letter "to whom it may concern" about taking a study hall next year rather than art for my independent latin course. Boy do I sound like an overacheiver. Latin independent course. But hey, I'm not alone. Most kids at Concord are like this. But I like it, no one torments me for being smart and actually liking school.
How stupid am I to miss him? How stupid am I to think that he misses me as much as I miss him?
Pretty damn.