might as well be across the world
wow....
i feel like a jackass.
i feel like shit
and i didn't even do anything.
in fact, i just got back from teh best stratford trip i've had. roomed with tabye, which was too too awesome. to much fun. i had a blast.
but then, i came home, and went to a homecoming game. fun fun fun. saw my best friend Casey and spent the entire time running around with her being just as crazy as i was in canada.
but then......i saw him. the guy i've been talking to online since the summer before ninth grade. dylan. in the back of my mind i knew i've always liked him....and never told him. he liked me, at one point. when we sort of confessed, i got so scared that i backed out and didnt' talk to him for a month.
things are as back to normal as they were. we still talk regualarly, but now....he has a girlfriend. and lately i've been wishing that i could have him back. which is odd, because i never really had him.
so, even when i just got the slightest bit of hope that maybe something could happen.....he tells me that he might be moving to california......
across the country....
might as well be across the world....
i wish.....i don't even know what i wish for.......i've loved this guy...yes loved, friend-wise....for a year and a half. probably a little longer. and now........it's going to disapear.
might as well be....ha. it will be across the world. the universe.
everything is going wrong.
i feel like a jackass.
i feel like shit
and i didn't even do anything.
in fact, i just got back from teh best stratford trip i've had. roomed with tabye, which was too too awesome. to much fun. i had a blast.
but then, i came home, and went to a homecoming game. fun fun fun. saw my best friend Casey and spent the entire time running around with her being just as crazy as i was in canada.
but then......i saw him. the guy i've been talking to online since the summer before ninth grade. dylan. in the back of my mind i knew i've always liked him....and never told him. he liked me, at one point. when we sort of confessed, i got so scared that i backed out and didnt' talk to him for a month.
things are as back to normal as they were. we still talk regualarly, but now....he has a girlfriend. and lately i've been wishing that i could have him back. which is odd, because i never really had him.
so, even when i just got the slightest bit of hope that maybe something could happen.....he tells me that he might be moving to california......
across the country....
might as well be across the world....
i wish.....i don't even know what i wish for.......i've loved this guy...yes loved, friend-wise....for a year and a half. probably a little longer. and now........it's going to disapear.
might as well be....ha. it will be across the world. the universe.
everything is going wrong.