Thoughts
It's occurred to me that apparently I want a companion. I want someone to do life with me. I was perfectly fine being alone a month ago, and then Mitchell has to walk into my life and sweep me off my feet. And now, although he said he genuinely liked me, apparently he's over it already. I feel rejected, and I hate it. I was perfectly fine a month ago. I don't get why this had to happen. I want to go back to a month ago. I want to be granted a do over, and yet, even if I was given a second chance, I'd probably do everything just the same. I don't regret the time I spent with him. I just don't really like what I'm feeling right now.
I decided while sitting in my car tonight, waiting for him to get off work, so I could tell him bye before I left, that I really must find a new job. I can't continue working there. It's not completely because of him. I never intended to stay there forever. I want to work at a restaurant with a better wine selection. Maybe that's why this happened; maybe it's so I didn't get comfortable at Copeland's. Perhaps there is a better job for me just around the corner, and falling for him and getting rejected will push me to obtain that better job. I kind of feel like I'm on a trampoline. I bounce from one place to the next so quickly. Part of me would love to find a place to just stick to and stay for a while, but at the same time, that's not really in the life plan just now. The plan is to bounce from location to location until I've got some traveling out of the way. Maybe then I'll settle down and root in one place. I suppose we shall see.
I decided while sitting in my car tonight, waiting for him to get off work, so I could tell him bye before I left, that I really must find a new job. I can't continue working there. It's not completely because of him. I never intended to stay there forever. I want to work at a restaurant with a better wine selection. Maybe that's why this happened; maybe it's so I didn't get comfortable at Copeland's. Perhaps there is a better job for me just around the corner, and falling for him and getting rejected will push me to obtain that better job. I kind of feel like I'm on a trampoline. I bounce from one place to the next so quickly. Part of me would love to find a place to just stick to and stay for a while, but at the same time, that's not really in the life plan just now. The plan is to bounce from location to location until I've got some traveling out of the way. Maybe then I'll settle down and root in one place. I suppose we shall see.