A copy and paste from FB message to LJ
Dearest darling Mitchell: I don't want to be mad or upset or sad. My pastor from GA taught us that pain is all-consuming, and when you're hurt, it makes you selfish, and you can't think of anything but the pain that you feel. So that's why when I'm upset, I'm upset, and I can't really do anything to change that. However, the woman that I was a nanny for in GA taught me that I am in control of my own emotions. No one else. Just me. So if I get upset again, I'm going to take control and just let it go and be happy. I don't want to give you "the cold shoulder." Even when I'm upset, I miss the hell out of you. I hate working when you're not there because I like to see you. I like working with you, not because I like you, but because you're a damn good co-worker. You're always there to help everyone; whenever anyone needs help, you're always there for them, and I love that about you. I know this will probably creep you out, especially since me being jealous creeped you out, but I'm going to tell you anyway because I'm a very honest person. Regardless of whether you want to consider our shenanigans sex or not, you already have a piece of me. I never intended to give you a piece of my heart so quickly, but you know, sometimes shit just happens. I'm not telling you this in an effort to get into your pants. I just thought you should know. I really truly just want to be your friend. I want nothing more from you. If you decide you want to date me again in the future, I'm totally cool with that because I absolutely adore you, but first and foremost, I just want to be your friend. You're a phenomenal person, and I feel so blessed to have been able to cross paths with you. Regardless of what paths each of our lives take, I hope we'll always be friends.