Throwing down the pencil and grabbing a pen.
Life continues. Sometimes, it gets better and sometimes it's incredibly hard to force myself awake. I've also found it easier to stay angry throughout the day if I wake up angry. Lately, I've been waking up just more exhausted and utterly ambivalent toward my entire existence. Do I care that people I've pushed out of my life come back? "Meh" is the only answer I have.
This new living situation is actually incredibly amazing. There's some underlying drama that I believe is all me, and when I get over it, things can go back to normal. But Matt is just about the most amazing person to me, listening and sharing his cigs, and buying me Frostys when I'm sad. It's also amazing how Matt and Jon saved me from getting evicted by hiding the cat when the landlord decided he wanted to go room by room to check out the place. Starting my 3rd year here and the landlord chose NOW to do an inspection. He and I have had words and I have shouted at him because he's a complete imbecile. I love this place, but I'd love it more if he weren't in the picture.
...and, as always, I jinxed myself.
This new living situation is actually incredibly amazing. There's some underlying drama that I believe is all me, and when I get over it, things can go back to normal. But Matt is just about the most amazing person to me, listening and sharing his cigs, and buying me Frostys when I'm sad. It's also amazing how Matt and Jon saved me from getting evicted by hiding the cat when the landlord decided he wanted to go room by room to check out the place. Starting my 3rd year here and the landlord chose NOW to do an inspection. He and I have had words and I have shouted at him because he's a complete imbecile. I love this place, but I'd love it more if he weren't in the picture.
...and, as always, I jinxed myself.