Depression
I don't get it, for the first time since high school I have this overwhelming sadness howevering over me. I keep fucking up (I nearly got fired yesterday) and can't seem to be happy. I'm beyond frustrated and truely upset. I keep going over in my head all of the things that I did wrong and how I could have avoided that whole fiasco. It was just a string of rotten luck paired with some really stupid decisions on my part. I can't move past being upset about Todd. Every day that I don't hear from him makes this harder and harder. His mom still hasn't called. Its been four days. This is supposed to be a happy time, but I feel like I can't be happy--and things just keep getting worse.