fresh start
it must have been really evident how affected / bothered i was for this past month. thinking of what have happened to me, what he had done, really made me look like a fool. countless mistakes with regards to work continued that's why my supervisors have finally made the decision to assign me in NIGHT DUTY.
peace at last.
i won't feel any pressure. i won't feel stressed. i have experienced a lot, so i guess it is my time to do the night shift. when everyone else is asleep, dreaming whatever it may be, i won't have any irritating guests approaching the desk during the wee hours of the night.
very nice.
4 more months.
i can't wait to go home.
i really learned a lot.
there's no point in sulking, living in the past.
yes there were good times, but the bad times made me forget about myself, and only think about him.
he was my first. i know it is hard to forget. but im trying.
i wont' be a hyprocite. even if he's gone for over a month and probably got married with his girl back home, i still tend to cry at night.
there's still a part of me wishing that our days together did not ended.
i still badly want him.
not really love, but want.
i guess it just means i like the thought of being in love, and not really in love with the person.
i do owe myself some loving too.
enough crap.