let me free

[seremelaeluch]

i want to be set free
i'm trapped
i broke it
the promise i made
i cant tell you why
i'm not me

i've been lost for some time now
i dont know where i've been
i need to bring me back
thats the only way i know

the days go by as a blur
i cant tell you where i've been
where i'm going
what i'm doing

i'm afraid
to let it all out
to be my full potential

i'm intoxicated by the world around me
looking inside myself is like suicide

i hide in the material surrounding me
only to find myself more lost
how am i to continue?

i need to stop this cycle
loved ones tell me
life is a journey
do with it what you may

yet i am still trapped
i want you to save me
but you cant
no one can

only me
in my creation of hell
can guide me to the real me

i cant cry
i've forgotten how
i cant feel
i am numb to pain

i was good for so long
only to end up as this
this monster

i want to be beautiful
this is the only way i know how

this is not for you
it is for the one who will never know
never care to know
only for you

as for me
i fall into my deepest secrets
wishing and praying
only for my fairy tale

i had to do this
this is how it starts
with pain

i know i am close
dont step in front of me
i am there
my shell protects me

i have to break it
i have to get out
i am trapped
it is time to begin

i sleep with the sweet smell of dried blood