i just don't know.
i'm kinda an emotional mess right now. i'm stressing out over tomorrows herbology test. i have to pass. but i'm going to stay up all night until i know every effin' term there is.
but more than all that, i don't know what to do about zack. i really like him. and i said i wasn't looking for a relationship with him, but to be honest i can see myself dating him. but at the same time i can never see us getting married. he has so many flaws but i like him despite every one of them. he's so sweet to me. and i know he likes me a lot. but he's not a christian. and i've seen my parents relationship which sucks. and i don't want that. but i have this feeling that God put him in my life so that i could be there for him and help him change. but what if that's just what i want it to be? what if i'm not supposed to be in a relationship with him? but how can i try to change him without being close to him and hanging out with him? but just from the one time we've hung out, i can't get him out of my head. hanging out again will just make it even harder! i'm going crazy thinking about it. and of course there is the fact that i won't be at uwf for more than 2 years most likely. and he'll just be turning 18 when i leave and i doubt he's going to go to college so there's no hope of him going where i go. i'm so lost.
i need some serious advice yo.
but more than all that, i don't know what to do about zack. i really like him. and i said i wasn't looking for a relationship with him, but to be honest i can see myself dating him. but at the same time i can never see us getting married. he has so many flaws but i like him despite every one of them. he's so sweet to me. and i know he likes me a lot. but he's not a christian. and i've seen my parents relationship which sucks. and i don't want that. but i have this feeling that God put him in my life so that i could be there for him and help him change. but what if that's just what i want it to be? what if i'm not supposed to be in a relationship with him? but how can i try to change him without being close to him and hanging out with him? but just from the one time we've hung out, i can't get him out of my head. hanging out again will just make it even harder! i'm going crazy thinking about it. and of course there is the fact that i won't be at uwf for more than 2 years most likely. and he'll just be turning 18 when i leave and i doubt he's going to go to college so there's no hope of him going where i go. i'm so lost.
i need some serious advice yo.