Saiyuki fic - Within You Chapter 5
Title: Within You
Chapter: 5
Warnings: Worksafe
Pairing(s): Gojyo/Hakkai
Summary: Up in the shared room of Gojyo and Hakkai, things begin to go off kilter...
Previous chapters
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
A/N:
So...anyone ever believed this would actually continue? No? Hah, fooled again.
God. I can't believe I've left this hanging since the beginning of the year! So sorry, everyone!! Well, anyone still left reading this. The last months of school were hell, exams were worse and then, when it was finally time for summer vacation, my laptop broke down. That in itself is bad, but the word-document where I'm writing the story was on there. I only got my laptop back yesterday in working order.
Also, I've been struggling tremendously with this and it probably shows. I think some of it was writer's block. This, along with the fact that you've been waiting so long, is also why the chapter is so short. I could have made it longer, but I figured it would be an alright cliffhanger there and then I could get it out to you all sooner.
Well, enjoy, all. To those two people reading it (and no, one is not my mom).
Within You Chapter 5
It wasn’t much to speak of, the little room the brunette and the redhead was to share for the night. Then again, how much did they really need? When it came down to it, all they needed was two beds, a bathroom and some light so they didn’t have to walk around in the dark at night.
Speaking of which - it might be as well the amount of furniture in the room was sparse, otherwise the healer would have a lot more trouble making his way over to the single unoccupied bed in the room without making very much noise. Not that he suspected the kappa would notice it if he was to make a lot of noise, judging from the amount of alcohol he’d consumed during the course of the evening. Not to mention the way his body was sprawled across the bed like somebody had dropped the various parts of him one by one and then adjusted slightly so they fitted together.
He wasn’t snoring, though, which the former school teacher was grateful for, as it meant he could listen in peace to the deep breathing coming from the other bed. Perhaps he could even fall asleep at some point, he thought as he lay down in his own bed after having changed into the loose T-shirt and pants he normally slept in and having placed both headband and monocle in a small pocket of his bag.
Come to think of it, though, it wasn’t normal for the hanjyuu to be breathing without it coming out as very heavy snoring, not when he’d been…imbibing vast amounts of alcohol. The green-eyed man frowned slightly in puzzlement and worry. Perhaps something was the matter…?
No, he was breathing as deeply as he normally did in his sleep and was sprawled across the bed like he often was. The brunette relaxed muscles he hadn’t realised he’d tensed and heaved a soft sigh. In the end, it wasn’t his business. He shouldn’t intrude and he should not wake his friend from his well-deserved sleep.
Therefore he was more than a little surprised when something that definitely was too clear to be something that was mumbled in one’s sleep reached his ears. At least it was clear enough for him to hear it relatively clearly even from across the room, with one ear pressed against his pillow.
Despite this, he thought it was only that; drunken mumbling. That is, until he heard it again.
“You came back.”
That earned a sound that could pass for a very small chuckle. “Why, Gojyo, I was only down in the bar. It only takes a couple of minutes to walk from down there and into this room, including unlocking the door. Did you think I’d get lost in that short amount of time?”
It was meant as a joking comment, such as the former human had often used back at their shared home when he knew the redhead needed to chuckle or laugh, whatever the reason might be.
This time, however, it didn’t earn him the reaction he’d hoped for or anticipated. Instead it earned him a soft, very strange sound. Something between a snort, a sigh and what sounded suspiciously like a small whimper. There was also movement, when the womaniser turned over so that he was lying on his side, facing towards the healer. The red eyes had a soft shine in them, probably due to what little moonlight was able to filter into the room, and it made him look like he was possessed by something not quite identifiable.
“’s not what I meant, ‘Kai,” the kappa half-mumbled, yet in the utter silence of the room it came out rather clear. “’s not what I meant…”.
The brunette got the feeling somehow that there was a whole lot lying under the simple statement and that he was treading dangerous waters. Had been since his friend had started talking, really, but he only realised it at that moment. It wasn’t the full impact of it, though. Not yet.
This was the reason he used a rather cautious tone of voice when he spoke next. “Then, if I may ask, did you mean?”
For a time nothing but heavy silence filled the room and the brunette could almost believe that his friend had fallen asleep once more - or that what he had heard was indeed nothing more than the usual drunken mumbling in his sleep. Almost, if it wasn’t for the rather intense, nearly burning stare he could clearly feel even if he could hardly see them.
Then the voice he knew almost as well as his own was heard again. “You’re going to leave…going to leave for good. Leaving me all alone.” There was something in that voice that sliced at the healer’s heart, a tone of hurt and strange resignation.
On top of that, it made him rather confused. Why would Gojyo say such a thing? It didn’t make sense. He wasn’t sure it was wise to keep prodding at it, but on the other hand the hanjyuu was his friend and roommate and he had promised himself that he’d be there for the redhead whenever he needed him, even if it hurt.
That was why he would keep on prodding at it, though, no matter what happened. It was perhaps not the wisest thing, but obviously his kappa and his mental state and problems came first.
Wait a minute…his kappa? Since when did he get so possessive of the womaniser? True, he did have feelings for him, very strong feelings at that, but still…it didn’t allow him to get greedy and possessive, now did it? Even if it was only in the comfort of his own mind. Still didn’t give him the right to do so in any way, shape or form.
This was what he had promised himself. Their friendship came before anything else, and to allow himself to even remotely think like that…it was simply too low, even for a murderer, a beast like him…
He sighed softly, certain in the knowledge that it wouldn’t carry across the room. He was sometimes extremely grateful that he over the past few years had taught himself to hold up a façade and keep it, almost no matter what happened. It seemed that it might be necessary. Gojyo always was a handful when he was drunk - and even more so when all the tangled feelings that hid behind the easygoing grin and relaxed attitude that was little but the façade decided to come out.
Somehow this also caused him to be a lot more perceptive than was usually the case. Under normal circumstances it would please the bespectacled man to have his friend be more perceptive, but at that exact moment he really could do without it. There were some things he would rather keep to himself, after all.
Trying to snap out of his musings so as to not truly alarm redhead he made an effort to remember what had just been said. It wouldn’t do if he couldn’t come up with a coherent answer, after all. That could cause a bit of trouble, especially if Gojyo caught on to any of the things he’d been thinking about.
“Now why would I do that, Gojyo?” he inquired, trying his best to keep his voice soft and mild. “Would that not be irresponsible of me considering the mission we are on?”
On the other side of the room there was movement. Rather quick movement, too, though the healer couldn’t make out what in the darkness and he wondered why there was suddenly a sort of angry feel to the air in the room.
There was something else in the air, too, though. Something he couldn’t put a finger on, but something that, however miniscule it might be, was enough to make a discord in the auras and fabric of the air.
This something was probably what propelled him to sit up and put his glasses on in an effort to see his friend a little clearer, though the lack of answer and the decidedly angry move, if the speed and forcefulness was anything to go by, most likely had something to do with it, too.
“What is it, Gojyo? What did I do?” Once more he tried to keep his voice soft, though he could feel his worry rising, along with a spark of annoyance and anger deep inside of him.
This time there was no doubt about it. There was definitely movement and the sheer force of it, though the move itself was small, was so powerful that it not only displayed the anger but also almost hid the frustration that really got the healer puzzled.
“Forget it, Hakkai. You wouldn’t understand, anyway,” came the reply, slightly muffled as it was forced between teeth.
The spark inside flared.
“Your eyes can be so cruel..."
TBC
So...we'll get to a really interesting part. Think of this as a kind of prelude, if you like. If it helps. It wasn't too bad, was it?
Chapter: 5
Warnings: Worksafe
Pairing(s): Gojyo/Hakkai
Summary: Up in the shared room of Gojyo and Hakkai, things begin to go off kilter...
Previous chapters
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
A/N:
So...anyone ever believed this would actually continue? No? Hah, fooled again.
God. I can't believe I've left this hanging since the beginning of the year! So sorry, everyone!! Well, anyone still left reading this. The last months of school were hell, exams were worse and then, when it was finally time for summer vacation, my laptop broke down. That in itself is bad, but the word-document where I'm writing the story was on there. I only got my laptop back yesterday in working order.
Also, I've been struggling tremendously with this and it probably shows. I think some of it was writer's block. This, along with the fact that you've been waiting so long, is also why the chapter is so short. I could have made it longer, but I figured it would be an alright cliffhanger there and then I could get it out to you all sooner.
Well, enjoy, all. To those two people reading it (and no, one is not my mom).
Within You Chapter 5
It wasn’t much to speak of, the little room the brunette and the redhead was to share for the night. Then again, how much did they really need? When it came down to it, all they needed was two beds, a bathroom and some light so they didn’t have to walk around in the dark at night.
Speaking of which - it might be as well the amount of furniture in the room was sparse, otherwise the healer would have a lot more trouble making his way over to the single unoccupied bed in the room without making very much noise. Not that he suspected the kappa would notice it if he was to make a lot of noise, judging from the amount of alcohol he’d consumed during the course of the evening. Not to mention the way his body was sprawled across the bed like somebody had dropped the various parts of him one by one and then adjusted slightly so they fitted together.
He wasn’t snoring, though, which the former school teacher was grateful for, as it meant he could listen in peace to the deep breathing coming from the other bed. Perhaps he could even fall asleep at some point, he thought as he lay down in his own bed after having changed into the loose T-shirt and pants he normally slept in and having placed both headband and monocle in a small pocket of his bag.
Come to think of it, though, it wasn’t normal for the hanjyuu to be breathing without it coming out as very heavy snoring, not when he’d been…imbibing vast amounts of alcohol. The green-eyed man frowned slightly in puzzlement and worry. Perhaps something was the matter…?
No, he was breathing as deeply as he normally did in his sleep and was sprawled across the bed like he often was. The brunette relaxed muscles he hadn’t realised he’d tensed and heaved a soft sigh. In the end, it wasn’t his business. He shouldn’t intrude and he should not wake his friend from his well-deserved sleep.
Therefore he was more than a little surprised when something that definitely was too clear to be something that was mumbled in one’s sleep reached his ears. At least it was clear enough for him to hear it relatively clearly even from across the room, with one ear pressed against his pillow.
Despite this, he thought it was only that; drunken mumbling. That is, until he heard it again.
“You came back.”
That earned a sound that could pass for a very small chuckle. “Why, Gojyo, I was only down in the bar. It only takes a couple of minutes to walk from down there and into this room, including unlocking the door. Did you think I’d get lost in that short amount of time?”
It was meant as a joking comment, such as the former human had often used back at their shared home when he knew the redhead needed to chuckle or laugh, whatever the reason might be.
This time, however, it didn’t earn him the reaction he’d hoped for or anticipated. Instead it earned him a soft, very strange sound. Something between a snort, a sigh and what sounded suspiciously like a small whimper. There was also movement, when the womaniser turned over so that he was lying on his side, facing towards the healer. The red eyes had a soft shine in them, probably due to what little moonlight was able to filter into the room, and it made him look like he was possessed by something not quite identifiable.
“’s not what I meant, ‘Kai,” the kappa half-mumbled, yet in the utter silence of the room it came out rather clear. “’s not what I meant…”.
The brunette got the feeling somehow that there was a whole lot lying under the simple statement and that he was treading dangerous waters. Had been since his friend had started talking, really, but he only realised it at that moment. It wasn’t the full impact of it, though. Not yet.
This was the reason he used a rather cautious tone of voice when he spoke next. “Then, if I may ask, did you mean?”
For a time nothing but heavy silence filled the room and the brunette could almost believe that his friend had fallen asleep once more - or that what he had heard was indeed nothing more than the usual drunken mumbling in his sleep. Almost, if it wasn’t for the rather intense, nearly burning stare he could clearly feel even if he could hardly see them.
Then the voice he knew almost as well as his own was heard again. “You’re going to leave…going to leave for good. Leaving me all alone.” There was something in that voice that sliced at the healer’s heart, a tone of hurt and strange resignation.
On top of that, it made him rather confused. Why would Gojyo say such a thing? It didn’t make sense. He wasn’t sure it was wise to keep prodding at it, but on the other hand the hanjyuu was his friend and roommate and he had promised himself that he’d be there for the redhead whenever he needed him, even if it hurt.
That was why he would keep on prodding at it, though, no matter what happened. It was perhaps not the wisest thing, but obviously his kappa and his mental state and problems came first.
Wait a minute…his kappa? Since when did he get so possessive of the womaniser? True, he did have feelings for him, very strong feelings at that, but still…it didn’t allow him to get greedy and possessive, now did it? Even if it was only in the comfort of his own mind. Still didn’t give him the right to do so in any way, shape or form.
This was what he had promised himself. Their friendship came before anything else, and to allow himself to even remotely think like that…it was simply too low, even for a murderer, a beast like him…
He sighed softly, certain in the knowledge that it wouldn’t carry across the room. He was sometimes extremely grateful that he over the past few years had taught himself to hold up a façade and keep it, almost no matter what happened. It seemed that it might be necessary. Gojyo always was a handful when he was drunk - and even more so when all the tangled feelings that hid behind the easygoing grin and relaxed attitude that was little but the façade decided to come out.
Somehow this also caused him to be a lot more perceptive than was usually the case. Under normal circumstances it would please the bespectacled man to have his friend be more perceptive, but at that exact moment he really could do without it. There were some things he would rather keep to himself, after all.
Trying to snap out of his musings so as to not truly alarm redhead he made an effort to remember what had just been said. It wouldn’t do if he couldn’t come up with a coherent answer, after all. That could cause a bit of trouble, especially if Gojyo caught on to any of the things he’d been thinking about.
“Now why would I do that, Gojyo?” he inquired, trying his best to keep his voice soft and mild. “Would that not be irresponsible of me considering the mission we are on?”
On the other side of the room there was movement. Rather quick movement, too, though the healer couldn’t make out what in the darkness and he wondered why there was suddenly a sort of angry feel to the air in the room.
There was something else in the air, too, though. Something he couldn’t put a finger on, but something that, however miniscule it might be, was enough to make a discord in the auras and fabric of the air.
This something was probably what propelled him to sit up and put his glasses on in an effort to see his friend a little clearer, though the lack of answer and the decidedly angry move, if the speed and forcefulness was anything to go by, most likely had something to do with it, too.
“What is it, Gojyo? What did I do?” Once more he tried to keep his voice soft, though he could feel his worry rising, along with a spark of annoyance and anger deep inside of him.
This time there was no doubt about it. There was definitely movement and the sheer force of it, though the move itself was small, was so powerful that it not only displayed the anger but also almost hid the frustration that really got the healer puzzled.
“Forget it, Hakkai. You wouldn’t understand, anyway,” came the reply, slightly muffled as it was forced between teeth.
The spark inside flared.
“Your eyes can be so cruel..."
TBC
So...we'll get to a really interesting part. Think of this as a kind of prelude, if you like. If it helps. It wasn't too bad, was it?