Waiting FTL.
I have a minorly long story ahead of me. A lot has happened over the last few days, and I haven't bothered to come on and post it because... well, there were more fun things to do than write in my LJ. The problem is that I remember only most of it, so bear with me. XD
First and foremost... I passed my Microsoft exam. That makes me an MCP, for the most part. I have to wait until I get my MCP ID number and access code from Microsoft -- yes, this does present a problem, namely waiting to hear from them. I'm not officially an MCP until I get my card and access code from them, which means that technically, I can't put it on my resume until I actually have it. Nor does that mean can I officially sign up for another exam until I get it. So I have to wait and wait until it finally gets here... and then I can apply for my WELCOME KIT, which means I get to wait ANOTHER two or three weeks! Huzzah. -_____- Waiting FTL.
Oh well, at least my exam's out of the way. I'm taking this waiting opportunity as break time. So I've signed up to play World of Warcraft! Yahoo!
...or at least, I WOULD, if the stupid thing didn't require a credit card for verification purposes. Man, it's so DUMB. I'm only using a trial account, but I can't even make THAT without verification! The account creation sucks. The trial is supposed to entice people into wanting to play it, not throw it out the window before the thing even LOADS. I pity the poor person who could've been into World of Warcraft but decided it was too much hassle were it not for this poor registration method. GG, Blizzard, GG! Now that means I have to wait for Kagemaru to arrive home so I can use his credit card. Waiting FTL!
I'm really good at this waiting game, actually -- I'm waiting for Metallica - S&M to arrive. Amazon are really good, actually. Really really good. Whenever we order something via Amazon, it only takes a week to arrive. That's not bad considering it has to arrive from the States and all. And I asked Kagemaru if I could get some Metallica DVDs... so he ordered Cunning Stunts and S&M for me. Cunning Stunts arrived the other day, S&M's due at the end of the week (well, actually, S&M's due end of NEXT week, but I wouldn't be surprised if we saw it end of THIS week XD). Still, that means I have to wait 'til the end of the week to see it. Waiting... FTL! XD
The other day, Thursday, we went up town as a group of friends, to see She's The Man. Yeah. You know. The newest Amanda Bynes hunky-boy movie. Yeah. We went to see that in Lower Hutt. Pffff. XD It was cool fun, though. Not the movie, just the rest of the experience. Deity, Louise, Leem, Kerryn 'n Sorien all tagged along for the trip (half of them planned eet XD), and we caught the bus into town, chilled out in Lower Hutt, saw the movie, and hung out in the arcade for a bit. Dee bought herself a CD (Fallout Boy, for those mildly interested), and yeah. I ended up playing a bit of Percussion Freaks. That was good fun, even if I died. It's a hella expensive game though. Twice the amount of Beatmania, so I went and had a shot with my DJ skillz. That was awesome. XD
I ended up taking a lot of pictures that day. I might post 'em up later, if I feel like it. Of course, that means resizing several files, and most of the pictures were good. I didn't take many pictures after the movie, sadly... mainly 'coz it was too dark. That won't stop me from spamming the camera next weekend at Armageddon, however. ;) But I got lots of pictures (well, not really). Afterwards, I ended up walking Deity home (:P). I swear, my feet must know how to get from Dee's house to the Flat (and the Flat to my house) off by heart now -- I've gone from Dee's house to the Flat so many times recently, it's GOT to be second nature... not to mention from Dee's to Louise's. Man. XD
Friday was a get-together at Louise's. Deity's last full day down here in the Big Upps (at least, 'til the weekend XD), so we had a lil' get-together. That was cool, I guess. Leem and his girlfriend played lots of Monopoly (Leem owned XD), and I watched for a bit, before deciding to play some guitar and whatnot. Dee and Weezay played some Singstar Suxx0rz.... oh wait, Singstar Rocks (yeah, the game's alright... but half the songs in this version aren't even ROCK! Sickening XD). It was a good time, I guess, actually. Malison and Mina didn't show up 'til much later, sadly, and they didn't stay for very long. Bah. Ah well. Still had some cool times. We ended up four-playing DDR, and we lost. XD
Afterwards, we ended up leaving (Dee left, I left, Leem and Kerryn left, and Suicide left XD)... and I ended up walking Dee home. When we got to her house, I gave her two presents -- the first was a contribution to the "Help Dee come down for Armageddon" fund (which as the name implies, is the fund where we gather...I think it's $60 for her to come down this weekend and get home); I tossed her my wallet and told her to take as much as she wanted. I thought she was gonna take more than just $20, and was kinda disappointed when she didn't actually. XD But it was cool, at least. Gotta help out somehow, ah?
The second was Excel Saga. Now, my friends, Excel Saga is a brilliant series. Leem thought we might not find it funny, but I like it alot. It's climbing the charts as one of my faves. XD I've been watching it slowly over the last week... and well, I guess I just... XD So I gave her the DVDs. She said she'd give them back at some point, but I'm not too fussed.
Hahaha.
After that began my weekend. Cunning Stunts arrived on Saturday, so I watched that. I planned on heading over to the Flat, as it was Malison's birthday. So I went over after the DVD and we just... hung out. Spicey installed Age of Mythologies on his computer... and I watched. And cried. And pined. And begged for a turn. XD I'm mildly sad though. Didn't get to hang out much with Mally, since he played lotsa Mortal Kombat: Shaolin Monks. One player. Pah. XD! Well, whatever suits him.... but eesh. Next time I go to the Flat, I'm plugging Halo in, whether the niggaz like it or not, sittin' 'em down and gamin' the crap outta 'em. Or maybe I'll take my laptop and play some AoM or Unreal Tournament. Multiplayer FTW. Single-player isolation FTL.
Malison cooked hamburgers and wedges for dinner that night, actually. That was really good. Mind you, I was hungry (which is common while at the Flat), but that was a good feed. Mum came and dropped my church clothes off, since I decided to go to church the next day. The rest of the night was more or less Spicey playing Age of Mythologies. Good game, that. XD
Church the next morning was cool. One of the elders spoke of 'forgiveness', a subject that just, moves me every time I hear it. Filled with messages of... "Forgive those who transgress. Love thy enemies." Messages that completely dispel me of hate and anger. I think forgiveness and love are the most important things we as humans should learn. And it's a great feeling to forgive those who wrong us and throw away the burden of fear and hatred, regardless of how badly they sin against us.
After church, I went to see Louise. Every time I go to church, I just get the warmest feelings about Louise. Yeah. She's cool, and super fun. I enjoy hanging out with her, and she's warm and wonderful to hug. I love her to death. Madly to death. XD I think it's a little sad not to see the same love reciprocated, especially since I've changed so much (there's high maintenance, low maintenance, and zero maintenance. I'm zero-maintenance now, expecting nothing whatsoever in return, only giving everything I have to give ^.~ )... but meh. Who cares? I love. Being loved back is nice... but I love to love. XD
Part of the reason I wanted to see her is that I wanted to forgive her for her feelings over the last year. Whether you believe it or not, it was those feelings that began us down the path to breaking up. You may believe that you stopped loving me... and you may be right. But I don't think it was that alone that caused us to break up, Louise. You saw desire. And that led you away from me. And I forgive you for leaving me. :)
Back to something a little less depressing.... I returned to the Flat after Louise's house. Man, that was annoying. I thought Mally was gonna be there (he said he was gonna take the day off to look after Mina) but when I arrived it was just Spicey playing games and Mina asleep in her room. Bah. I sat on the couch and just, waited, for entertainment. XD I talked with Spicey a bit. That was cool. But... well, you know; he's at the computer playing a game, and I'm just there on the couch with nothing to do. So I just sat there while talking with him a little. Mina emerged from her room eventually, came and sat next to me, and we talked a little bit. Mostly about how she missed him.
Now, before I go on, I love Mina to death. She's an awesome girl. Her and Malison are gonna last for ages. But damn. Sometimes, I see... part of myself in her. The side of myself that used to exist... the controlling, clingy side. The part of myself I hate. It puts major strain on the relationship. Now, I know Malison's content with her. He's humble, and caring, and only willing to give in. He genuinely loves her. But I think that fear she has... the lack of self-strength gets in the way of true happiness for the both of them. I wonder why they fight when they do... is it, fear? Like me? As far as I see, they fight whenever she has a problem with him. I've never once seen Malison pull Mina aside and fight with her. Not ONCE in the two and a half years they've been out; she's the one who has the problem with him, so she pulls him aside and has a word with him. What is it that drives it all? Fear? Desire? Disappointment? Can she not just see he loves her, regardless of whatever he does or doesn't do? Or whatever he says?
I want her to stop finding things wrong with him. See his flaws as things to love. A friend of mine said a long time ago that when you truly love someone, you love all of them, including the things you hate about them. Their faults aren't faults... you LOVE their faults. And never let them get you down at all. I don't... have any qualms with anyone now. With Louise.... I love every single part of her; even the parts I used to hate, I hate them no more.
And you can bet the next time I'm alone with Mina, I'm gonna voice all this to her. I'm like that. ;)
So, yeah. At about 4:30pm or so, Mom came to pick me up. That was when I got World of Warcraft off the Flat. I'm using Spicey's trial account that he hasn't passed out yet (well, he has now XD). I spent most of last night installing the fricking thing: first off, I had to back up Dad's computer, so I had to wait while the image backed up. Waiting FTL. Then I had to install the game. The game is four frickin' discs. I ended up watching Constantine while it installed slowly. Waiting FTL. Then afterwards, I had to download the patch. The patch is 359MB. Waiting FTL. Halfway through the download, it STOPPED downloading and I had to start the damn thing again.... yep, you guessed it. WAITING FTL!!!
And now I have to wait 'til I can get my hands on a fricking CREDIT card to verify the stupid thing. And I have to wait for people to get online. Yeah. I win first prize in this waiting game. WAITING. F. T. L.
Well, I believe I might go do something to pass the time. Like.... I dunno. Eat. Stupid thing. Stupid boring everything. Catch y'all later!
...oh, did I mention, WAITING FTL!?!?!?! XDXD
First and foremost... I passed my Microsoft exam. That makes me an MCP, for the most part. I have to wait until I get my MCP ID number and access code from Microsoft -- yes, this does present a problem, namely waiting to hear from them. I'm not officially an MCP until I get my card and access code from them, which means that technically, I can't put it on my resume until I actually have it. Nor does that mean can I officially sign up for another exam until I get it. So I have to wait and wait until it finally gets here... and then I can apply for my WELCOME KIT, which means I get to wait ANOTHER two or three weeks! Huzzah. -_____- Waiting FTL.
Oh well, at least my exam's out of the way. I'm taking this waiting opportunity as break time. So I've signed up to play World of Warcraft! Yahoo!
...or at least, I WOULD, if the stupid thing didn't require a credit card for verification purposes. Man, it's so DUMB. I'm only using a trial account, but I can't even make THAT without verification! The account creation sucks. The trial is supposed to entice people into wanting to play it, not throw it out the window before the thing even LOADS. I pity the poor person who could've been into World of Warcraft but decided it was too much hassle were it not for this poor registration method. GG, Blizzard, GG! Now that means I have to wait for Kagemaru to arrive home so I can use his credit card. Waiting FTL!
I'm really good at this waiting game, actually -- I'm waiting for Metallica - S&M to arrive. Amazon are really good, actually. Really really good. Whenever we order something via Amazon, it only takes a week to arrive. That's not bad considering it has to arrive from the States and all. And I asked Kagemaru if I could get some Metallica DVDs... so he ordered Cunning Stunts and S&M for me. Cunning Stunts arrived the other day, S&M's due at the end of the week (well, actually, S&M's due end of NEXT week, but I wouldn't be surprised if we saw it end of THIS week XD). Still, that means I have to wait 'til the end of the week to see it. Waiting... FTL! XD
The other day, Thursday, we went up town as a group of friends, to see She's The Man. Yeah. You know. The newest Amanda Bynes hunky-boy movie. Yeah. We went to see that in Lower Hutt. Pffff. XD It was cool fun, though. Not the movie, just the rest of the experience. Deity, Louise, Leem, Kerryn 'n Sorien all tagged along for the trip (half of them planned eet XD), and we caught the bus into town, chilled out in Lower Hutt, saw the movie, and hung out in the arcade for a bit. Dee bought herself a CD (Fallout Boy, for those mildly interested), and yeah. I ended up playing a bit of Percussion Freaks. That was good fun, even if I died. It's a hella expensive game though. Twice the amount of Beatmania, so I went and had a shot with my DJ skillz. That was awesome. XD
I ended up taking a lot of pictures that day. I might post 'em up later, if I feel like it. Of course, that means resizing several files, and most of the pictures were good. I didn't take many pictures after the movie, sadly... mainly 'coz it was too dark. That won't stop me from spamming the camera next weekend at Armageddon, however. ;) But I got lots of pictures (well, not really). Afterwards, I ended up walking Deity home (:P). I swear, my feet must know how to get from Dee's house to the Flat (and the Flat to my house) off by heart now -- I've gone from Dee's house to the Flat so many times recently, it's GOT to be second nature... not to mention from Dee's to Louise's. Man. XD
Friday was a get-together at Louise's. Deity's last full day down here in the Big Upps (at least, 'til the weekend XD), so we had a lil' get-together. That was cool, I guess. Leem and his girlfriend played lots of Monopoly (Leem owned XD), and I watched for a bit, before deciding to play some guitar and whatnot. Dee and Weezay played some Singstar Suxx0rz.... oh wait, Singstar Rocks (yeah, the game's alright... but half the songs in this version aren't even ROCK! Sickening XD). It was a good time, I guess, actually. Malison and Mina didn't show up 'til much later, sadly, and they didn't stay for very long. Bah. Ah well. Still had some cool times. We ended up four-playing DDR, and we lost. XD
Afterwards, we ended up leaving (Dee left, I left, Leem and Kerryn left, and Suicide left XD)... and I ended up walking Dee home. When we got to her house, I gave her two presents -- the first was a contribution to the "Help Dee come down for Armageddon" fund (which as the name implies, is the fund where we gather...I think it's $60 for her to come down this weekend and get home); I tossed her my wallet and told her to take as much as she wanted. I thought she was gonna take more than just $20, and was kinda disappointed when she didn't actually. XD But it was cool, at least. Gotta help out somehow, ah?
The second was Excel Saga. Now, my friends, Excel Saga is a brilliant series. Leem thought we might not find it funny, but I like it alot. It's climbing the charts as one of my faves. XD I've been watching it slowly over the last week... and well, I guess I just... XD So I gave her the DVDs. She said she'd give them back at some point, but I'm not too fussed.
Hahaha.
After that began my weekend. Cunning Stunts arrived on Saturday, so I watched that. I planned on heading over to the Flat, as it was Malison's birthday. So I went over after the DVD and we just... hung out. Spicey installed Age of Mythologies on his computer... and I watched. And cried. And pined. And begged for a turn. XD I'm mildly sad though. Didn't get to hang out much with Mally, since he played lotsa Mortal Kombat: Shaolin Monks. One player. Pah. XD! Well, whatever suits him.... but eesh. Next time I go to the Flat, I'm plugging Halo in, whether the niggaz like it or not, sittin' 'em down and gamin' the crap outta 'em. Or maybe I'll take my laptop and play some AoM or Unreal Tournament. Multiplayer FTW. Single-player isolation FTL.
Malison cooked hamburgers and wedges for dinner that night, actually. That was really good. Mind you, I was hungry (which is common while at the Flat), but that was a good feed. Mum came and dropped my church clothes off, since I decided to go to church the next day. The rest of the night was more or less Spicey playing Age of Mythologies. Good game, that. XD
Church the next morning was cool. One of the elders spoke of 'forgiveness', a subject that just, moves me every time I hear it. Filled with messages of... "Forgive those who transgress. Love thy enemies." Messages that completely dispel me of hate and anger. I think forgiveness and love are the most important things we as humans should learn. And it's a great feeling to forgive those who wrong us and throw away the burden of fear and hatred, regardless of how badly they sin against us.
After church, I went to see Louise. Every time I go to church, I just get the warmest feelings about Louise. Yeah. She's cool, and super fun. I enjoy hanging out with her, and she's warm and wonderful to hug. I love her to death. Madly to death. XD I think it's a little sad not to see the same love reciprocated, especially since I've changed so much (there's high maintenance, low maintenance, and zero maintenance. I'm zero-maintenance now, expecting nothing whatsoever in return, only giving everything I have to give ^.~ )... but meh. Who cares? I love. Being loved back is nice... but I love to love. XD
Part of the reason I wanted to see her is that I wanted to forgive her for her feelings over the last year. Whether you believe it or not, it was those feelings that began us down the path to breaking up. You may believe that you stopped loving me... and you may be right. But I don't think it was that alone that caused us to break up, Louise. You saw desire. And that led you away from me. And I forgive you for leaving me. :)
Back to something a little less depressing.... I returned to the Flat after Louise's house. Man, that was annoying. I thought Mally was gonna be there (he said he was gonna take the day off to look after Mina) but when I arrived it was just Spicey playing games and Mina asleep in her room. Bah. I sat on the couch and just, waited, for entertainment. XD I talked with Spicey a bit. That was cool. But... well, you know; he's at the computer playing a game, and I'm just there on the couch with nothing to do. So I just sat there while talking with him a little. Mina emerged from her room eventually, came and sat next to me, and we talked a little bit. Mostly about how she missed him.
Now, before I go on, I love Mina to death. She's an awesome girl. Her and Malison are gonna last for ages. But damn. Sometimes, I see... part of myself in her. The side of myself that used to exist... the controlling, clingy side. The part of myself I hate. It puts major strain on the relationship. Now, I know Malison's content with her. He's humble, and caring, and only willing to give in. He genuinely loves her. But I think that fear she has... the lack of self-strength gets in the way of true happiness for the both of them. I wonder why they fight when they do... is it, fear? Like me? As far as I see, they fight whenever she has a problem with him. I've never once seen Malison pull Mina aside and fight with her. Not ONCE in the two and a half years they've been out; she's the one who has the problem with him, so she pulls him aside and has a word with him. What is it that drives it all? Fear? Desire? Disappointment? Can she not just see he loves her, regardless of whatever he does or doesn't do? Or whatever he says?
I want her to stop finding things wrong with him. See his flaws as things to love. A friend of mine said a long time ago that when you truly love someone, you love all of them, including the things you hate about them. Their faults aren't faults... you LOVE their faults. And never let them get you down at all. I don't... have any qualms with anyone now. With Louise.... I love every single part of her; even the parts I used to hate, I hate them no more.
And you can bet the next time I'm alone with Mina, I'm gonna voice all this to her. I'm like that. ;)
So, yeah. At about 4:30pm or so, Mom came to pick me up. That was when I got World of Warcraft off the Flat. I'm using Spicey's trial account that he hasn't passed out yet (well, he has now XD). I spent most of last night installing the fricking thing: first off, I had to back up Dad's computer, so I had to wait while the image backed up. Waiting FTL. Then I had to install the game. The game is four frickin' discs. I ended up watching Constantine while it installed slowly. Waiting FTL. Then afterwards, I had to download the patch. The patch is 359MB. Waiting FTL. Halfway through the download, it STOPPED downloading and I had to start the damn thing again.... yep, you guessed it. WAITING FTL!!!
And now I have to wait 'til I can get my hands on a fricking CREDIT card to verify the stupid thing. And I have to wait for people to get online. Yeah. I win first prize in this waiting game. WAITING. F. T. L.
Well, I believe I might go do something to pass the time. Like.... I dunno. Eat. Stupid thing. Stupid boring everything. Catch y'all later!
...oh, did I mention, WAITING FTL!?!?!?! XDXD