Selling away my youth
I've sold most of my video games recently and it's strange because rather than feel bad about it like I would have at one point , I'm just glad that I have some cash in my wallet...is this what growing up feels like, constant desperation for cash ?
I don't like it very much...but I don't think I have a choice anymore, it being that the big birthday is coming up soon and I will be considered a fully fledged adult with adult responsibilities and will probably be expected to get a place of my own soon...I can only imagine what such a situation would be like for me it being that long periods of time alone do horrible things to me psychologically, although to be frank it seems as though I already do live alone, I never really talk to my mother or anyone else in my family as much as I used to and I expect my time here is limited...
There isn't too much looking forward to things lately, when money rules my existence and I live in constant fear...
I don't like it very much...but I don't think I have a choice anymore, it being that the big birthday is coming up soon and I will be considered a fully fledged adult with adult responsibilities and will probably be expected to get a place of my own soon...I can only imagine what such a situation would be like for me it being that long periods of time alone do horrible things to me psychologically, although to be frank it seems as though I already do live alone, I never really talk to my mother or anyone else in my family as much as I used to and I expect my time here is limited...
There isn't too much looking forward to things lately, when money rules my existence and I live in constant fear...