Week 1
So I'm almost at the end of my 1st week at the new workplace. So far so good, I'm still scared out of my mnd that I've gone in over my head. In the old job, I just had to take instructions and carry them out, simple. It's a step up here and there are more responsibilties to be undertaken, eventually, if not immediately. Things happen in flash and can change just like that. Maybe my idea of having found a retirement job is way off-tangent *lol*
But having said that, this job is more meaningful. I can see how the things we do here will help society as a whole and it drives me to stick to it. The scared little girl in me has been whining that she wants to run back to the old workplace, but it's the thought that this job helps people that keeps me going. And as if someone heard me, I've been assigned a project which strikes very close to heart and although the importance of success in this project weighs heavily on me, I really want to do this. I hope this will be my driving force.
On another note, I still miss my buddies. At least I know they are nearby and they are always on MSN. Had them laughing at me when I told them about how I still stick closely to my work routine at the old place, automatically attempting to tap my card (office and lift access) as if I'm still at the old place. And every Friday, we need to submit our timesheets to log our hours....and today, as usual, I MSNed them to remind them to submit their times before the lockout time. They concluded that the old company's blood runs deep in me and that I should just go back. My heart still remains there with them I reckon. Must ask for it back :P
This week also marks 1 month since the Incident. I like to think I've moved beyond the painful sadness, I've stopped meds for a week now. Insomnia is still a problem but I'm trying to rely on herbal supplement to help me with that now. I still look back and think about what could have been. I don't think I'll ever get over that, but at least the tears have stopped.
It's also almost a week since my birthday and our 14th anniversary! Must blog about it soon. Shall get back to my readings at work now.
But having said that, this job is more meaningful. I can see how the things we do here will help society as a whole and it drives me to stick to it. The scared little girl in me has been whining that she wants to run back to the old workplace, but it's the thought that this job helps people that keeps me going. And as if someone heard me, I've been assigned a project which strikes very close to heart and although the importance of success in this project weighs heavily on me, I really want to do this. I hope this will be my driving force.
On another note, I still miss my buddies. At least I know they are nearby and they are always on MSN. Had them laughing at me when I told them about how I still stick closely to my work routine at the old place, automatically attempting to tap my card (office and lift access) as if I'm still at the old place. And every Friday, we need to submit our timesheets to log our hours....and today, as usual, I MSNed them to remind them to submit their times before the lockout time. They concluded that the old company's blood runs deep in me and that I should just go back. My heart still remains there with them I reckon. Must ask for it back :P
This week also marks 1 month since the Incident. I like to think I've moved beyond the painful sadness, I've stopped meds for a week now. Insomnia is still a problem but I'm trying to rely on herbal supplement to help me with that now. I still look back and think about what could have been. I don't think I'll ever get over that, but at least the tears have stopped.
It's also almost a week since my birthday and our 14th anniversary! Must blog about it soon. Shall get back to my readings at work now.