Breaking point
The past couple of weeks have been mad, especially in the last couple of days, I've had to work past my usual working hours, burning weekends and missing out on weeks of mummy's cooking.
The stress and exhaustion is indescribable. My temper has been stretched to the max, I've blown up at my colleagues and E has suffered a couple of times because of my temper too :(
The oddest thing happened to me just now, I was rushing around getting things done when I tripped over nothing, fell alongside and being caught unawares, I just sat there, stunned for a couple of seconds.
I could feel pain in my knees, my wrist and my hip. My colleagues who saw the whole thing rushed over to check on me, they reached out to pull me to my feet. I was so, so tired that I told them to let me just sit there for a while. After a while, I got up, and sat on the sofa, just gathering myself together.
Then another colleague walked through the door and saw me just sitting there. I just said, 'I fell.'
He came over to find out how I was doing, and I could feel tears starting to well up. Damn me and my self-pitying state.
I didn't want people to see me like this, so I got to my feet and excused myself, walking gingerly back to my desk.
I don't think I can take anymore. I've already told my colleague that I can't work OT today, I really need a good rest, I can't even explain how I fell.
*big sighs*
The stress and exhaustion is indescribable. My temper has been stretched to the max, I've blown up at my colleagues and E has suffered a couple of times because of my temper too :(
The oddest thing happened to me just now, I was rushing around getting things done when I tripped over nothing, fell alongside and being caught unawares, I just sat there, stunned for a couple of seconds.
I could feel pain in my knees, my wrist and my hip. My colleagues who saw the whole thing rushed over to check on me, they reached out to pull me to my feet. I was so, so tired that I told them to let me just sit there for a while. After a while, I got up, and sat on the sofa, just gathering myself together.
Then another colleague walked through the door and saw me just sitting there. I just said, 'I fell.'
He came over to find out how I was doing, and I could feel tears starting to well up. Damn me and my self-pitying state.
I didn't want people to see me like this, so I got to my feet and excused myself, walking gingerly back to my desk.
I don't think I can take anymore. I've already told my colleague that I can't work OT today, I really need a good rest, I can't even explain how I fell.
*big sighs*