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A day that took everything in me to make it through...followed by a night that took even more to survive. How will I deal with the horrible...when I can't even deal with the bad?
It seems so much like it will take so little for it to all fall apart again. I've felt so strange lately...so in need of something...
The tears flowed all the time...they still flow more then I want...and yet its becoming harder and harder to cry. When the tears dry up, thats when I know.
I say a night that took even more to survive anf yet the night is far from over...please oh please just let me sleep it through.
I just don't want to be alone...so afraid of being alone.
I will pray again...pray that I can hold it all together...what little I manage to hold together these days. Pray I can realize that I'm not alone...
I just wish someone would hold me...anyone would hold me...
I wish they could let me borrow their strength...just for one night.
It hurts so much...
It seems so much like it will take so little for it to all fall apart again. I've felt so strange lately...so in need of something...
The tears flowed all the time...they still flow more then I want...and yet its becoming harder and harder to cry. When the tears dry up, thats when I know.
I say a night that took even more to survive anf yet the night is far from over...please oh please just let me sleep it through.
I just don't want to be alone...so afraid of being alone.
I will pray again...pray that I can hold it all together...what little I manage to hold together these days. Pray I can realize that I'm not alone...
I just wish someone would hold me...anyone would hold me...
I wish they could let me borrow their strength...just for one night.
It hurts so much...