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So. Lots of things happened. The person I referred to in my previous post tried to kill herself. She was rushed to the hospital that night and is going to be okay.
Went to A-Kon, and while it is true that I go there to meet lots of fun people, I hardly make any friends at all. I may elaborate on this later, however, this year was my favorite so far. I just had a good feeling throughout my stay.
I've been trying to get Financial Aid straightened out at ULL so I can have my tuition taken care of before hand, then again, I DID apply late so this should be no small wonder. I'm still going to harass them until they tell me what I get.
I've been regressing back to my previous state of being a hermit, never leaving the house except to work or eat. Today, after getting fitted for a tuxedo (my older brothers wedding Nov 6) I am going to pay someone back for the phone I broke just before the trip to A-Kon, buy a sketchpad, a leather bound journal (I lost the first one), and keep my camera on me. I need to have these things in order to distract myself, and to make myself feel less useless. I never do anything, nor get involved in anything, so I think it's time for me to start doing something with myself. I am better than this.
Once I get to Lafayette, I am going to start working out more often and more consistently, I'm going to be more friendly with my coworkers than I am at my current job, if it isn't against the rules for employees to speak to each other in a friendly manner (some businesses have a problem with this). I'm going to see about joining the Lafayette Chapter of the ACM, maybe get into an intramural sport, join the Hapkido class?
I'm going to cure myself of this. I am not pathetic, I am not a waste of space, I have a purpose in life that I, and I alone, need to hone. No sir, do not look back on your years as wasted, look at them as lessons. I'm 24, not 80+ never knowing what it is to be loved by one person whom I hold above everyone else. I can still find someone, all is not lost. I can still make good friends, who actually look for me to do things with, instead of me constantly wanting and waiting for someone to ask me for my company (I really think I have this wrong, I blame my mother).
Ah, enough of this, time to do something else.
Went to A-Kon, and while it is true that I go there to meet lots of fun people, I hardly make any friends at all. I may elaborate on this later, however, this year was my favorite so far. I just had a good feeling throughout my stay.
I've been trying to get Financial Aid straightened out at ULL so I can have my tuition taken care of before hand, then again, I DID apply late so this should be no small wonder. I'm still going to harass them until they tell me what I get.
I've been regressing back to my previous state of being a hermit, never leaving the house except to work or eat. Today, after getting fitted for a tuxedo (my older brothers wedding Nov 6) I am going to pay someone back for the phone I broke just before the trip to A-Kon, buy a sketchpad, a leather bound journal (I lost the first one), and keep my camera on me. I need to have these things in order to distract myself, and to make myself feel less useless. I never do anything, nor get involved in anything, so I think it's time for me to start doing something with myself. I am better than this.
Once I get to Lafayette, I am going to start working out more often and more consistently, I'm going to be more friendly with my coworkers than I am at my current job, if it isn't against the rules for employees to speak to each other in a friendly manner (some businesses have a problem with this). I'm going to see about joining the Lafayette Chapter of the ACM, maybe get into an intramural sport, join the Hapkido class?
I'm going to cure myself of this. I am not pathetic, I am not a waste of space, I have a purpose in life that I, and I alone, need to hone. No sir, do not look back on your years as wasted, look at them as lessons. I'm 24, not 80+ never knowing what it is to be loved by one person whom I hold above everyone else. I can still find someone, all is not lost. I can still make good friends, who actually look for me to do things with, instead of me constantly wanting and waiting for someone to ask me for my company (I really think I have this wrong, I blame my mother).
Ah, enough of this, time to do something else.