I want to listen to Santana and do drugs.
I grew up listening to Prince and Santana. Prince was my mother's influence, Santana was my father.
Overall this adds up into someone rather guitar-y, doesn't it?
Tonight is dance night at the gay bar. My crush is bringing me some concoction of his that's nootropic and possibly psychedelic in nature. He promises not to overdose me again, like he did last year. That was one hell of a year. It's funny to keep having a crush over years and not to want much more.
I made some erratic decisions while drunk the other night. They had few severe consequences. For me, anyway. I can't help but wonder how my actions affect others, but for now it's safest for me not to press that.
I feel like I used to feel, a girl amongst the boys. The girl of the group. Interchangeable. Wanted. Hopefully respected. Except now we're all adults and people get to sleep with each other. With consequences. That worries me, but I wonder what it's like to move past sleeping with someone and life carrying on without embarrassment. At least I'm hoping that's what happens.
Overall this adds up into someone rather guitar-y, doesn't it?
Tonight is dance night at the gay bar. My crush is bringing me some concoction of his that's nootropic and possibly psychedelic in nature. He promises not to overdose me again, like he did last year. That was one hell of a year. It's funny to keep having a crush over years and not to want much more.
I made some erratic decisions while drunk the other night. They had few severe consequences. For me, anyway. I can't help but wonder how my actions affect others, but for now it's safest for me not to press that.
I feel like I used to feel, a girl amongst the boys. The girl of the group. Interchangeable. Wanted. Hopefully respected. Except now we're all adults and people get to sleep with each other. With consequences. That worries me, but I wonder what it's like to move past sleeping with someone and life carrying on without embarrassment. At least I'm hoping that's what happens.