I Wish There Was More I Could Do
Phill says he feels depressed all of the time. He says I make him happy, but he still feels depressed. I can't even begin to explain how much that makes me feel.... Helpless... Like I can't do anything about it...
I just want to make him happy... There's not a thing on earth that I wouldn't do for him. How can I be so happy when the one I love is feeling so down? So depressed? There's nothing I can do about it and it pisses me off. Frustrates me. What the hell do I do if this continues? What if he wants to keep hurting himself? I don't want that to keep burdening him! I just want him to be happy, to enjoy things.
Perhaps I am being a hypocrite about this one, because he said yesterday that I mask how sad I feel with a hyper and happy me. Perhaps I do that, but at least I get feelings of happiness here and there. I just love him too much to see him so sad, and I will try my best to be the optimistic one in the relationship. I'll try my best to make sure that he's happy, and that he won't feel depressed anymore.
Oh yeah, and here are my New Years Resolutions:
1. Stay with Phill, and only Phill.
2. Get a job.
3. Get Driver's Ed.
4. Buy a hearse.
5. Draw and paint more.
6. Be more reliable for my friends.
w00t.
I just want to make him happy... There's not a thing on earth that I wouldn't do for him. How can I be so happy when the one I love is feeling so down? So depressed? There's nothing I can do about it and it pisses me off. Frustrates me. What the hell do I do if this continues? What if he wants to keep hurting himself? I don't want that to keep burdening him! I just want him to be happy, to enjoy things.
Perhaps I am being a hypocrite about this one, because he said yesterday that I mask how sad I feel with a hyper and happy me. Perhaps I do that, but at least I get feelings of happiness here and there. I just love him too much to see him so sad, and I will try my best to be the optimistic one in the relationship. I'll try my best to make sure that he's happy, and that he won't feel depressed anymore.
Oh yeah, and here are my New Years Resolutions:
1. Stay with Phill, and only Phill.
2. Get a job.
3. Get Driver's Ed.
4. Buy a hearse.
5. Draw and paint more.
6. Be more reliable for my friends.
w00t.