Mother Fucker.
I can't even begin to express how pissed off I was last night. My day at school was good, or whatever. I got to hang out with Phill afterwards, which was great as usual. I gave him his Christmas presents. We went back to the school where I gave Jeremy his present ^_^ Jeremy already used it. YAY! Ah, shit. Phill's still going on his trip. That makes me sad. Oh yeah, I got those pictures of Phill and I developed. Very cool. ^^
Yeah, so The Bean wasn't very good last night. I got my coffee, and I was sitting on a couch with Nic. Corey and Doug were talking to some girl named Grace, and I thought I heard that she was 14. Well, Doug introduced the both of them and he introduced Nic to Grace as "Pedophile Nic." Well, then I was sitting on the couch with Nic, or whatever, and Doug made some comment "Oh, well, you're 14 and Nic's a pedophile. You both meet the criteria," or some shit. I think Nic just laughed or added into the joke... I got pissed off and went to go look for Alex. Adding into me being upset about not even getting to see Nic that much anyway, I felt like I was going to cry. Alex and I sat in another room and I talked to him about it. Then Evan came over and conversed with us. I told them about everything and they gave me their personal opinions based on what they have seen and heard. Well, afterwards, Alex wanted to go for a drive to go get his car. I went into the Orange Room, grabbed my coat, told everyone I was going for a drive, and left. We went to Alex's house, got his car (we went for a ride in Evan's), and drove around. Then we picked up a pizza, and went back to The Bean. Went back into the Orange Room and Nic only said, "Hey Kat." That made me really fucking upset so I asked Alex if he could drive me home. We left after that. I talked to my mom about it and yeah... I'm still upset.
So then I went to bed. I had a really fucked up dream once again. The people in it were Phill, my mom, Dan, Jeremy, Josh Harmon (wtf?), and I think some other girls, too.... Well, I don't remember much, but once again I was going for death.... I had this huge bottle of pills and I swallowed all of them. Before I woke up, I remember Phill crying and my mom yelling at me. I remember the other people walking by and just looking at me, with a few comments.... It was fucking odd.
:(
Yeah, so The Bean wasn't very good last night. I got my coffee, and I was sitting on a couch with Nic. Corey and Doug were talking to some girl named Grace, and I thought I heard that she was 14. Well, Doug introduced the both of them and he introduced Nic to Grace as "Pedophile Nic." Well, then I was sitting on the couch with Nic, or whatever, and Doug made some comment "Oh, well, you're 14 and Nic's a pedophile. You both meet the criteria," or some shit. I think Nic just laughed or added into the joke... I got pissed off and went to go look for Alex. Adding into me being upset about not even getting to see Nic that much anyway, I felt like I was going to cry. Alex and I sat in another room and I talked to him about it. Then Evan came over and conversed with us. I told them about everything and they gave me their personal opinions based on what they have seen and heard. Well, afterwards, Alex wanted to go for a drive to go get his car. I went into the Orange Room, grabbed my coat, told everyone I was going for a drive, and left. We went to Alex's house, got his car (we went for a ride in Evan's), and drove around. Then we picked up a pizza, and went back to The Bean. Went back into the Orange Room and Nic only said, "Hey Kat." That made me really fucking upset so I asked Alex if he could drive me home. We left after that. I talked to my mom about it and yeah... I'm still upset.
So then I went to bed. I had a really fucked up dream once again. The people in it were Phill, my mom, Dan, Jeremy, Josh Harmon (wtf?), and I think some other girls, too.... Well, I don't remember much, but once again I was going for death.... I had this huge bottle of pills and I swallowed all of them. Before I woke up, I remember Phill crying and my mom yelling at me. I remember the other people walking by and just looking at me, with a few comments.... It was fucking odd.
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