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Justice is more than merely halting evil. It is treating people as they deserve to be treated - as they are. This presupposes sufficient knowledge, a proper and set standard of value, or morality and because it presupposes value and morality, then it must also presuppose choice.
I have always considered it a grievous error to consider things out of context. It blinds one to facts, to the possible lack of morality involved (where there is no choice, there can be no morality). I have been responsible for this error many times before, but not as seriously as I have with the most recent Potential.
It's just that I could see it with a kind of clarity I had only witnessed in my writing and when I see a vast and empty field, a brilliant vision of what could be. I do not yet know if it is because my sight had merely been upgraded or how far - and fantastically well - my last is going, or if I have become much more arrogant recently. I have never dealt well with not knowing the reasons behind an act. If I know the reasons or the motivations for a certain event or outcome, it'll make stopping it a lot easier.
Whenever I see one of them become even remotely affiliated with me, I become driven, almost madly obsessed. I am driven to shatter what I think to be a veil of ignorance, to give the exact words to what they seem to be grasping at - to remove the fog that they live in, in essence, perhaps to force them to see in the full context that which they may have been avoiding. No one can stay with me, in any form or manner, by faking any reality whatever. I will not allow no ignorance of certain things if one decides to be in my presence.
It just wouldn't be right. I'd be lying to myself and to them if they didn't know what kind of people in or to stay out my life and that just isn't right. If they aren't the kind of people that I like, then we part ways and it ends there. They are no longer my business and I hope the have the sense to know that I am no longer theirs. At least, if I part ways with people, I know, more often than not, that both parties know each other truthfully and it wasn't some disgusting misunderstanding, where justice would be almost impossible.
It has always been of vital importance to me for people to know where they stand with me. Sometimes, honestly, I take it as a given, leaving my actions, demeanor and topics of discussion to speak for me. Other times, I will explain myself in excrutiating detail, just to make sure that I am not misunderstood, or at least that I can say I tried.
And sometimes, I fail. I have been taken for a madman, a liar, a bastard, a thief, a hypocrite, a traitor and a murderer. It happens. There is only so much one can do, when it comes to another person. I don't own these people or these minds and may I be damned if I have ever come across or acted that way. And sometimes, I am not clear myself and it happens. A misunderstanding happens.
And I guess that brings us full circle. I can understand how my obsession with the most recent Potential can come across as something it is not - and with this, there can be no misunderstanding. There is simply too much to lose, so much I want and have and want to keep, as of yet.